High inhib curse

[iblamemandible7]

The more I think about my life the more I realize fear is what's holding me back

I've tried every cope, every meditation, every just breathe bro, etc, none of that shit works because it's something that's been hardwired into my nervous system for some reason, maybe it all started when I was 4 being ignored by my parents who were busy fighting each other, or the ridicule in elementary school, whatever it may be it's my unconscious state of existence, instead of living out of drive I live out of fear

Everything I do is not to achieve my goals, everything I do is to escape my fears

Starting to wonder if I'll ever be able to overcome it

 

[pentamogged9000]

 

[iblamemandible7]

I am a slave to my fears, so much so that my pathetic inactions lead me into embodying the very fears that control my life

 

[pentamogged9000]

I am a slave to my fears, so much so that my pathetic inactions lead me into embodying the very fears that control my life

nigga talking about not being able to stop jacking off

 

[Lefty Rankin]

The more I think about my life the more I realize fear is what's holding me back

I've tried every cope, every meditation, every just breathe bro, etc, none of that shit works because it's something that's been hardwired into my nervous system for some reason, maybe it all started when I was 4 being ignored by my parents who were busy fighting each other, or the ridicule in elementary school, whatever it may be it's my unconscious state of existence, instead of living out of drive I live out of fear

Everything I do is not to achieve my goals, everything I do is to escape my fears

Starting to wonder if I'll ever be able to overcome it

You just rub some high inhib cream on your face and you'll be able to see just how high your inhibitions are.

You're not very smart are you?

 

[FiendFiend]

The more I think about my life the more I realize fear is what's holding me back

I've tried every cope, every meditation, every just breathe bro, etc, none of that shit works because it's something that's been hardwired into my nervous system for some reason, maybe it all started when I was 4 being ignored by my parents who were busy fighting each other, or the ridicule in elementary school, whatever it may be it's my unconscious state of existence, instead of living out of drive I live out of fear

Everything I do is not to achieve my goals, everything I do is to escape my fears

Starting to wonder if I'll ever be able to overcome it

brutal. I had the same thing with parents. When u dont get much attention from parents its hard to break out the high inhib cycle.

The only way to fly out like a bird out of a cage if ur high inhib is see a substantial improve in your looks so u suddenly great treated better. The HTNs of the world may have shit home lives but get a lot of positive reinforcement and just fly off like a bird and have a normal life. My dad was one of those. Hes seeing thats not happening with me and my brother and just makes him hate us more cuz hes a sissy faggot

 

[Kroker]

U talk like it were me

Man I’m shackled by anxiety and fear

I’m hoping back in SSRIs, I was low cortisol freak

Worst part is the physical manifestation of those symptoms lmfao, always tensed up

 

[FiendFiend]

U talk like it were me

Man I’m shackled by anxiety and fear

I’m hoping back in SSRIs, I was low cortisol freak

Worst part is the physical manifestation of those symptoms lmfao, always tensed up

SSRI's. Fucking brutal. This is ur fate on this forum, either you stay on here for years, or u fly off like a bird and yoru account says "Deleted Member 184848"

 

[Kroker]

SSRI's. Fucking brutal. This is ur fate on this forum, either you stay on here for years, or u fly off like a bird and yoru account says "Deleted Member 184848"

Idk man you say it like if I had a choice

 

[FiendFiend]

Idk man you say it like if I had a choice

yes its a choice to not hope on SSRI's. Im sorry that u werent informed on them man but fuck so brutal. Im lucky when my mom offered me them I said no cuz i watched DBDR. Fucking brutal. Im now getting bimax and have ascended from being a subhuman to prob around a mtn realistically, now just gonna get my bimax and try get back into life one step at a time.

 

[iblamemandible7]

brutal. I had the same thing with parents. When u dont get much attention from parents its hard to break out the high inhib cycle.

The only way to fly out like a bird out of a cage if ur high inhib is see a substantial improve in your looks so u suddenly great treated better. The HTNs of the world may have shit home lives but get a lot of positive reinforcement and just fly off like a bird and have a normal life. My dad was one of those. Hes seeing thats not happening with me and my brother and just makes him hate us more cuz hes a sissy faggot

Bro the thing is I'm hella scared to get surgeries. Tomorrow I'm making the appointment to see the eye doctor about my lazy eye. But even thinking about calling the office makes me feel a pit in my stomach. When I think about those niggas digging around and cutting my muscles and shit while I'm basically medically dead it makes my heart race. Fuarkk. But I would never forgive myself if I didn't do it

 

[FiendFiend]

Bro the thing is I'm too scared to get surgeries. Tomorrow I'm making the appointment to see the eye doctor about my lazy eye. But even thinking about calling the office makes me feel a pit in my stomach. When I think about those niggas digging around and cutting my muscles and shit while I'm basically medically dead it makes my heart race. Fuarkk. But I would never forgive myself if I didn't do it

I fucking hate it too. I despise the fact im having to call my mom getting my bimax arranged but I know it will ascend me to gandy heaven. Maybe its because I've had a surgery before when I had hot boiled water spilt all over my stomach and literally needed a skin retransplant that i dont care lol.

U will just drift off to sleep and wake up with all the pain and suffering behind you. A surgery for me is like nothing, im grateful i had that experience. Just get it out the way imo. There isnt a day where im not trying to get the surgery setup and consultation setup. My mom is sitting on her hands with it and being like "muh i need to do more research" etc. im making her hurry up, ive done crazy research on the topic too.

Just want life to be normal like when I was a good looking kid and enjoy the simple shit in life again.

 

[Kroker]

yes its a choice to not hope on SSRI's. Im sorry that u werent informed on them man but fuck so brutal. Im lucky when my mom offered me them I said no cuz i watched DBDR. Fucking brutal. Im now getting bimax and have ascended from being a subhuman to prob around a mtn realistically, now just gonna get my bimax and try get back into life one step at a time.

Who’s DBDR? I’ve been on them before, I’m very well versed on the subject

 

[MikeMew'sBitch]

My career is ruined due to high inhib. Im 30 yo with masters degree, was unemployed for years due to being high inhib and avoiding social situations. Then got a friend to set me up a job in a bank at high position. I got called to the interview and day before was sweating so much from anxiety, couldnt sleep at night, i was obsessively thinking about what if i screw up and embarrass myself. Legit got panic attack night before the interview and felt nausea just by thinking about showing up there where i would be in the center of attention. In the end i gave up and didnt show up, told them i had a cold and was sick so couldnt go out. They took someone else and now im still unemployed. This shit is ruining me tbh, only solutions are medications, roping or get a job as night security where i dont have to interact with anyone

 

[iblamemandible7]

I fucking hate it too. I despise the fact im having to call my mom getting my bimax arranged but I know it will ascend me to gandy heaven. Maybe its because I've had a surgery before when I had hot boiled water spilt all over my stomach and literally needed a skin retransplant that i dont care lol.

U will just drift off to sleep and wake up with all the pain and suffering behind you. A surgery for me is like nothing, im grateful i had that experience. Just get it out the way imo. There isnt a day where im not trying to get the surgery setup and consultation setup. My mom is sitting on her hands with it and being like "muh i need to do more research" etc. im making her hurry up, ive done crazy research on the topic too.

Just want life to be normal like when I was a good looking kid and enjoy the simple shit in life again.

Yeah it's just a couple hours laying down on a bed to change my entire future ig. Easy to think about it like that, but hard to really put myself in it. Fuck it tho I'm done living as a hermit.

 

[iblamemandible7]

My career is ruined due to high inhib. Im 30 yo with masters degree, was unemployed for years due to being high inhib and avoiding social situations. Then got a friend to set me up a job in a bank at high position. I got called to the interview and day before was sweating so much from anxiety, couldnt sleep at night, i was obsessively thinking about what if i screw up and embarrass myself. Legit got panic attack night before the interview and felt nausea just by thinking about showing up there where i would be in the center of attention. In the end i gave up and didnt show up, told them i had a cold and was sick so couldnt go out. They took someone else and now im still unemployed. This shit is ruining me tbh, only solutions are medications, roping or get a job as night security where i dont have to interact with anyone

So accurate man fuck. The nausea is the literal worst. When I first began suffering from anxiety at 10 that was the first manifestation of it. When I get scared I just want to gag everywhere and I feel my throat close up and my stomach churn like a dryer. It literally controls my life and makes me avoid doing the things I want to do. I hope you find peace from this horrible disease bro

 

[MikeMew'sBitch]

So accurate man fuck. The nausea is the literal worst. When I first began suffering from anxiety at 10 that was the first manifestation of it. When I get scared I just want to gag everywhere and I feel my throat close up and my stomach churn like a dryer. It literally controls my life and makes me avoid doing the things I want to do. I hope you find peace from this horrible disease bro

Im also getting diarrhea when under a lot of anxiety . I couldve been a high earner and fairly rich if i didnt have such horrible social anxiety since i have masters degree in finance. Im legit stuck at home hiding and just someone calling me on the phone or knocking on my door gives me anxiety. Im aware this is not the way we are supposed to live and i tought about roping several times since this shit is going to make me homeless if i continue like that.

Manager of certain bank called me to invite me for a talk because on resume i looked like a perfect candidate for a job, when my phone started ringing i legit started sweating and felt something that can be described almost as a panic attack. I was staring at the phone screen and didnt have the balls to answer the call. After it stopped i felt a relief and wished that he never calls me again (which he didnt). I lost shitload of high paying job opportunities because of anxiety. Its got to the point where anxiolytic drugs are my only hope. Ill have to visit the doctor and get myself prescribed anti-anxiety drugs otherwise im done for