How am I supposed to live like this?

[AryanTrvecel]

I am still in school right now and I’ve been KHHV for my entire life, even when I go to school I’m unable to actually find someone to talk to most of the time. I spend my days off rotting away at home and I usually don’t go outside for days.
Sometimes I don’t even shower for a week just because I feel too lazy to go about it. I have low motivation to do anything other than be on my phone and waste my time online.

Now obviously when I go to school I do shower the night before, however even when I try to act normal as in trying to be friendly with people and talking to people that I have classes with I am still unable to make any real friends at school. I do have “best friends” however most of them don’t have me as their best friend, they likely think of me as below fifth in their ranking.

Moreover, I’m LTN and asocial. If any foids were to actually get to know me they wouldn’t want to be anywhere near me. It’s not like it matters though because they wouldn’t even feel like approaching me or being anywhere near me. I’m kind of short too even though I’m average height for my age, it doesn’t matter because I’m perceived as short due to having a poor frame and a long torso.

I spend most of my time online, and while I do this and waste my time my growth plates are getting closer and closer to closing forever. I am losing hope that I will ever be able to actually ascend my skeletal structure and it’s making me want to not have to go through the process of aging at all. I don’t want to get old honestly and live through this hell which would never end.

I can’t imagine myself going through 30+ years of enduring torment, pain, and humiliation like this. Even my own parents will simply be disappointed in me knowing that their son has never surpassed them and gone on to be magnificent and great. I suffer daily honestly and most truly from everything that I have to go through, I am scared that I will never be able to ascend. If I never ascend then what even is the point of living here?

I hate living here in my country, I hate having to live the life of someone who is exceedingly average and below average in the worst areas. Maybe my iq is the only thing that is above average but still it doesn’t even matter at this point. I’m relatively successful academically but I don’t think any degree of academic success no matter how great it is would drastically improve my life quality to the point of changing the way I think and feel about my environment. Is it over? If it is then pm me the quickest method please.

 

[jozsef316@gmail]

I can’t imagine myself going through 30+ years of enduring torment, pain, and humiliation from anyone who even gets

 

[AryanTrvecel]

Fuck it’s a typo

 

[Diddihippi09]

I am still in school right now and I’ve been KHHV for my entire life, even when I go to school I’m unable to actually find someone to talk to most of the time. I spend my days off rotting away at home and I usually don’t go outside for days.
Sometimes I don’t even shower for a week just because I feel too lazy to go about it. I have low motivation to do anything other than be on my phone and waste my time online.

Now obviously when I go to school I do shower the night before, however even when I try to act normal as in trying to be friendly with people and talking to people that I have classes with I am still unable to make any real friends at school. I do have “best friends” however most of them don’t have me as their best friend, they likely think of me as below fifth in their ranking.

Moreover, I’m LTN and asocial. If any foids were to actually get to know me they wouldn’t want to be anywhere near me. It’s not like it matters though because they wouldn’t even feel like approaching me or being anywhere near me. I’m kind of short too even though I’m average height for my age, it doesn’t matter because I’m perceived as short due to having a poor frame and a long torso.

I spend most of my time online, and while I do this and waste my time my growth plates are getting closer and closer to closing forever. I am losing hope that I will ever be able to actually ascend my skeletal structure and it’s making me want to not have to go through the process of aging at all. I don’t want to get old honestly and live through this hell which would never end.

I can’t imagine myself going through 30+ years of enduring torment, pain, and humiliation like this. Even my own parents will simply be disappointed in me knowing that their son has never surpassed them and gone on to be magnificent and great. I suffer daily honestly and most truly from everything that I have to go through, I am scared that I will never be able to ascend. If I never ascend then what even is the point of living here?

I hate living here in my country, I hate having to live the life of someone who is exceedingly average and below average in the worst areas. Maybe my iq is the only thing that is above average but still it doesn’t even matter at this point. I’m relatively successful academically but I don’t think any degree of academic success no matter how great it is would drastically improve my life quality to the point of changing the way I think and feel about my environment. Is it over? If it is then pm me the quickest method please.

Dnr

 

[0_angularity_0]

Try looksmaxxing like Clavicular

 

[surgeryplanning]

I am still in school right now and I’ve been KHHV for my entire life, even when I go to school I’m unable to actually find someone to talk to most of the time. I spend my days off rotting away at home and I usually don’t go outside for days.
Sometimes I don’t even shower for a week just because I feel too lazy to go about it. I have low motivation to do anything other than be on my phone and waste my time online.

Now obviously when I go to school I do shower the night before, however even when I try to act normal as in trying to be friendly with people and talking to people that I have classes with I am still unable to make any real friends at school. I do have “best friends” however most of them don’t have me as their best friend, they likely think of me as below fifth in their ranking.

Moreover, I’m LTN and asocial. If any foids were to actually get to know me they wouldn’t want to be anywhere near me. It’s not like it matters though because they wouldn’t even feel like approaching me or being anywhere near me. I’m kind of short too even though I’m average height for my age, it doesn’t matter because I’m perceived as short due to having a poor frame and a long torso.

I spend most of my time online, and while I do this and waste my time my growth plates are getting closer and closer to closing forever. I am losing hope that I will ever be able to actually ascend my skeletal structure and it’s making me want to not have to go through the process of aging at all. I don’t want to get old honestly and live through this hell which would never end.

I can’t imagine myself going through 30+ years of enduring torment, pain, and humiliation like this. Even my own parents will simply be disappointed in me knowing that their son has never surpassed them and gone on to be magnificent and great. I suffer daily honestly and most truly from everything that I have to go through, I am scared that I will never be able to ascend. If I never ascend then what even is the point of living here?

I hate living here in my country, I hate having to live the life of someone who is exceedingly average and below average in the worst areas. Maybe my iq is the only thing that is above average but still it doesn’t even matter at this point. I’m relatively successful academically but I don’t think any degree of academic success no matter how great it is would drastically improve my life quality to the point of changing the way I think and feel about my environment. Is it over? If it is then pm me the quickest method please.

you are still young. I would recommend you join a boxing/mma/bjj gym and train it for proper T levels. It will help you be dominant in social situations too

 

[petko]

I am still in school right now and I’ve been KHHV for my entire life, even when I go to school I’m unable to actually find someone to talk to most of the time. I spend my days off rotting away at home and I usually don’t go outside for days.
Sometimes I don’t even shower for a week just because I feel too lazy to go about it. I have low motivation to do anything other than be on my phone and waste my time online.

Now obviously when I go to school I do shower the night before, however even when I try to act normal as in trying to be friendly with people and talking to people that I have classes with I am still unable to make any real friends at school. I do have “best friends” however most of them don’t have me as their best friend, they likely think of me as below fifth in their ranking.

Moreover, I’m LTN and asocial. If any foids were to actually get to know me they wouldn’t want to be anywhere near me. It’s not like it matters though because they wouldn’t even feel like approaching me or being anywhere near me. I’m kind of short too even though I’m average height for my age, it doesn’t matter because I’m perceived as short due to having a poor frame and a long torso.

I spend most of my time online, and while I do this and waste my time my growth plates are getting closer and closer to closing forever. I am losing hope that I will ever be able to actually ascend my skeletal structure and it’s making me want to not have to go through the process of aging at all. I don’t want to get old honestly and live through this hell which would never end.

I can’t imagine myself going through 30+ years of enduring torment, pain, and humiliation like this. Even my own parents will simply be disappointed in me knowing that their son has never surpassed them and gone on to be magnificent and great. I suffer daily honestly and most truly from everything that I have to go through, I am scared that I will never be able to ascend. If I never ascend then what even is the point of living here?

I hate living here in my country, I hate having to live the life of someone who is exceedingly average and below average in the worst areas. Maybe my iq is the only thing that is above average but still it doesn’t even matter at this point. I’m relatively successful academically but I don’t think any degree of academic success no matter how great it is would drastically improve my life quality to the point of changing the way I think and feel about my environment. Is it over? If it is then pm me the quickest method please.

I mean bro im also not the most socially conservative person but you just gotta find at least 1 thing that will make you happier
Doesn’t matter if its going to be to ascend, help others or whatever but you have to actually find 1 thing that makes you better every day

 

[AryanTrvecel]

you are still young. I would recommend you join a boxing/mma/bjj gym and train it for proper T levels. It will help you be dominant in social situations too

Maybe, but I don’t think my test level is the problem, tbf I probably have low test and I also have low dimo but it doesn’t even matter since most people don’t find high male dimorphism attractive or something that they perceive positively.