Bruce_Ugly
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- Jun 21, 2025
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occasionally I get a break, and ounce of peace and I feel alright, I go to work and I’m with others who are educated like me, they’re professional, and I actively make a difference in peoples lives. I feel good, I have money, not absurd amounts but I live comfortable. My gf comes over whenever I want, she takes care of me when I’m sick and gets sick herself just to make sure she cooks for me, and gives me medicine. I have a stable family, I live on my own, I even have the motorcycle I’ve wanted all my life. I went to school just like my parents wanted me to, I have no loans I have nothing I paid for it myself. Everything seems to be in order, there’s nothing that would be missing but a wife and kids but I just turned 20. There’s just an overwhelming sense of hopelessness, idk if it’s this forum, the realizations that came with it but I just can’t fucking take it anymore I constantly fantasize about ending it everything is horrible in my eyes I can’t change my mindset what the fuck else can I do it’s been 3 years like this how do I stop myself from leaving everything behind I want the peace of death
