How autistic did I look in front of my gym crush? Am I overthinking this?

[Turtle]

So basically there's this girl from the gym I have an insane limerance for which definitely isn't reciprocated but I still crush anyway, and ive been really worried about embarrassing myself in front of her, and exactly that happened back in November when this other girl asked me how many sets i had left front of her and I panicked and instead of just saying "one more set" I decided to unleash this absolute word salad and say "I'm actually on my last set" which she didn't hear so I had to say it twice which humiliated me, and the crush and her friend both stared at me throughout this whole blunder and I glanced at them instead of looking at the woman talking to me lol, and they were really close to me as well like hardly a meter away so this whole thing was definitely within earshot so they could hear my social fuckup, whatever they thought it couldn't have been good because the crush actually smiled at me the next time I saw her after this disaster of an interaction so I'm assuming I must've looked so autistic and awkward that it caused her to actually feel pity for me for a moment, it didn't last tho because she went straight back to looking at me with disgust and putting her hoodie on whenever working out in my line of sight but I must've looked so disabled that it caused her to actually briefly feel sorry for me enough to set her disgust for me aside and give me a nice smile

 

[Deleted member 118164]

prolly looked like a faggot

 

[Deleted member 42399]

@delonisliterallyme read the whole thing

 

[Deleted member 58755]

@delonisliterallyme read the whole thing

gm bro

over for that guy

 

[Turtle]

gm bro

over for that guy

Is it as bad as I think? I know you obviously wasn't there but given how I've explained it?

 

[MarkSynklar]

honestly, don't place yourself in these situations man, these circumstances.... whatever.

like, caring this much about one girl that doesn't reciprocate, being around her in a space with other people to stare at your misery. not saying you're dumb for it or anything, most of us here go thru similar shit, figure it out, deal w/ it, but, yeah, it's pretty unideal and destructive over time.

i'd probably go to different gym, i can't stand people seeing me like that lol. problem with crushes is that they give you that dopamine that keeps you coming back.