How can I convince myself I'm doing this for myself?

[sarmatian]

I'm improving
Some shit happened, really some of the worsts months of my life
I don't know If I don't want to kms anymore, I guess I just want to see where it goes first

My teeth are fairly straight, got rubber bands on my braces. Bimax is planned but probably gonna talk about it at the end of the year
Got my drivers license, and I'm finishing some exams so I'll be free in the summer (to rot lol)
It's about a couple of months that I'm consistently doing at home work outs like push ups, lateral raises, bicep curls, hammer curls, dumbbell rows and leg raises
Got less skinny, put more muscle but I'm still fairly slim, so nothing special, at least I kinda look human without a shirt
Starting to get into fragrances, trying to get a decent perfume for summer

I also started therapy, was suicidal for a lot during these months and I also cut myself with a razor, kinda cringe but it is what it is
Therapy is really good, I really like my therapist, she's helped me quite a lot but I just recently started therapy so quite a lot to go

I won't talk about what actually happened, kinda personal and also even more cringe than all of this
Also, I lost interest in any girl for the moment. A girl actually liked me and wrote to me in DMs but I ghosted because I didn't know how to politely decline (she's pretty but I don't want anyone in my life rn, also I don't feel attracted to any girl atm)

Idk, I'm just really lonely and I don't know what to do
I'll probably start to jump rope to do some cardio and keep busy

 

[iblamegenetics-]

dnr but why convince u its for yourself whats the fucking point

 

[iblamegenetics-]

just tell urself u doing it for the hoes

 

[Lord Shadow]

just keep going, your making improvements and things I think one important thing is having a goal to push towards whether its with a hobby and new passion or anything I think having something you want to accomplish is really important and soemthing to keep striving for - even if its just for happiness deep down its all for yourself anyway but yeah try new things get into some more stuff and just experiment (its a good way to learn more about yourself too)

goodluck bhai and good progress mane

 

[sarmatian]

just keep going, your making improvements and things I think one important thing is having a goal to push towards whether its with a hobby and new passion or anything I think having something you want to accomplish is really important and soemthing to keep striving for - even if its just for happiness deep down its all for yourself anyway but yeah try new things get into some more stuff and just experiment (its a good way to learn more about yourself too)

goodluck bhai and good progress mane

 

[VohnnyBoy]

I'm improving
Some shit happened, really some of the worsts months of my life
I don't know If I don't want to kms anymore, I guess I just want to see where it goes first

My teeth are fairly straight, got rubber bands on my braces. Bimax is planned but probably gonna talk about it at the end of the year
Got my drivers license, and I'm finishing some exams so I'll be free in the summer (to rot lol)
It's about a couple of months that I'm consistently doing at home work outs like push ups, lateral raises, bicep curls, hammer curls, dumbbell rows and leg raises
Got less skinny, put more muscle but I'm still fairly slim, so nothing special, at least I kinda look human without a shirt
Starting to get into fragrances, trying to get a decent perfume for summer

I also started therapy, was suicidal for a lot during these months and I also cut myself with a razor, kinda cringe but it is what it is
Therapy is really good, I really like my therapist, she's helped me quite a lot but I just recently started therapy so quite a lot to go

I won't talk about what actually happened, kinda personal and also even more cringe than all of this
Also, I lost interest in any girl for the moment. A girl actually liked me and wrote to me in DMs but I ghosted because I didn't know how to politely decline (she's pretty but I don't want anyone in my life rn, also I don't feel attracted to any girl atm)

Idk, I'm just really lonely and I don't know what to do
I'll probably start to jump rope to do some cardio and keep busy

no one self improves for themself