chaddyboi66
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I just want to see Her again one more time and tell Her everything I should've all those years ago.
I don't want Her to see me like this for this broken mess of a subhuman I've descended into because I couldn't ever get over Her.
I've been telling myself and everyone that's asked here that I've been trying to pick myself back up again for the past year and yet all I've done since is waste time shitposting on offtopic to procrastinate my schoolwork, create over 20+ threads dedicated solely to making fun of curries, or letting stupid niggas here try and get the better of me by tricking me into wasting my time making Evisceration threads over petty shit.
I'm afraid that by the time I finish looksmaxing and ascending, that is if I even do, She'll already be married with a family and I'd have nothing left to love.
I know this place while keeping me chained and bound by and endless cycle of hopes to copes also holds within it the means by which I can finally truly be free from the misery of my pathetic life.
God help me, except he hasn't.
Then again, I haven't really bothered trying to pray in over a year or two now anyway so maybe that's part of it too.
I know offtopic isn't healthy for me but I really don't know where else I'm supposed to turn, I have no friends, no based family knowledgeable in these kinds of problems from a blackpilled perspective, Jfl I don't even any people I can pay totalk to help me. On top of all that the few people I do end up thinking might be able to help me I always inevitably end up pushing away or abandoning. Not to mention my nigh nonexistent social skills.
Sometimes I wish I were brave, brave enough to rope that is, but I'm a coward and I think I always have been tbh. What kind of "brave" man would ever let something like butterflies in his stomach stop him from going after the girl he loved? Not a brave man, just me, a coward.
I'm sorry for posting this cringe shit and that you had to read it if you did, don't bother reading it if you don't want to I think I'm just posting it more for myself anyway.
I don't want Her to see me like this for this broken mess of a subhuman I've descended into because I couldn't ever get over Her.
I've been telling myself and everyone that's asked here that I've been trying to pick myself back up again for the past year and yet all I've done since is waste time shitposting on offtopic to procrastinate my schoolwork, create over 20+ threads dedicated solely to making fun of curries, or letting stupid niggas here try and get the better of me by tricking me into wasting my time making Evisceration threads over petty shit.
I'm afraid that by the time I finish looksmaxing and ascending, that is if I even do, She'll already be married with a family and I'd have nothing left to love.
I know this place while keeping me chained and bound by and endless cycle of hopes to copes also holds within it the means by which I can finally truly be free from the misery of my pathetic life.
God help me, except he hasn't.
Then again, I haven't really bothered trying to pray in over a year or two now anyway so maybe that's part of it too.
I know offtopic isn't healthy for me but I really don't know where else I'm supposed to turn, I have no friends, no based family knowledgeable in these kinds of problems from a blackpilled perspective, Jfl I don't even any people I can pay to
Sometimes I wish I were brave, brave enough to rope that is, but I'm a coward and I think I always have been tbh. What kind of "brave" man would ever let something like butterflies in his stomach stop him from going after the girl he loved? Not a brave man, just me, a coward.
I'm sorry for posting this cringe shit and that you had to read it if you did, don't bother reading it if you don't want to I think I'm just posting it more for myself anyway.