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This is another one of those rants but I just want to vent tbh lol.... im 22 and have a 3.5 bone pressed fully erect size and it is torture to my mind. I am 5'10 and tbh not the overweight lol but ever since i hit that age where i realized that my penis size was a thing that mattered, i have been feeling down and never had a good self esteem. Tbh i have always had a good loving and supportive family, but i never told anyone about my size... because i always think of it and ofc when you are younger it is one of your biggest insecurities being small ... but tbh i never had a girlfriend or really talked to a girl lol. The most contact with a female was when i hugged my mom on her cake day lol... but i never had the confidence to talk to them and always have put my self in a position of being worthless then everyone else and not even bother wasting their time... tbh i feel like a creep if i even look at the females... i just look at the ground when i walk lmao... but i realize that my mentality is really unhealthy but at the same time i just accepted the reality, i have never had a woman or female approach me in school or outside life lol. But i feel bad, i was always extremely shy and anxious in school, tbh i always skipped group projects presentations to just not present due to my poor self confidence and blah blah.... but yeah i burned my own bridges in life and regret it till this day, i never enjoyed my youth how i wanted to, i wonder what it feels being a teenager and having a normal social life with friends and etc... or even just having the experience of being confident enough to talk to girls.. i don't blame anyone for my problems tbh, it's all my fault... up until now i just do me, the thought of having a small size really tortures me tho, i instantly feel worthless then the other guy lmao but tbh, i just workout alot now to keep calm and i try to spend all my time being busy, its a good thing being a mechanical engineering student tbh, the workload keeps my mind occupied most times of the day... but im just sitting here and really gave up on ever having a experience like that, what also i really want to do is help out my community and see everyone else make their dreams come true. So to cope with my small dick problem i just grind in life as much as i can to avoid thinking of it, one day ofc i will feel regret when im old and loney but oh well its life and im just 1 human being and not special, to all my bros here keep your head up and don't let that shi* keep you from reaching you goals in life. Also by helping the community, the other day i went for a run at a near by middle school and after... i saw a bunch of trash and just so happened to have a few spare trash bags and went and cleaned up the whole school of trash. That honestly made me destress and see that i am not completely worthless, that made me feel "satisfied" knowing i can contribute to the community and such.
