How can I get through bulking if I'm severely underweight muscle lean

[Emerq]

What happens is I'm succesfully bulking, I'm currently 63 kg 5'10 with good muscle mass, but then all of the sudden I lose the only facial definition I have

My cheeks get fuller, my lips change in definition, the chin looks worse, I just look terrible while trying to bulk

Looking in the mirror gives me ropefuel if I'm not lean, but I really need to bulk and get at least 70kg so I don't look small wearing normal clothes

any advice is appreciated (wearing a mask to hide my face, scarf, wearing hoodies, idk)

I'll be happy when I reach that limit weight so I can cut and lose bodyfat again

 

[thebigdon]

What happens is I'm succesfully bulking, I'm currently 63 kg 5'10 with good muscle mass, but then all of the sudden I lose the only facial definition I have

My cheeks get fuller, my lips change in definition, the chin looks worse, I just look terrible while trying to bulk

Looking in the mirror gives me ropefuel if I'm not lean, but I really need to bulk and get at least 70kg so I don't look small wearing normal clothes

any advice is appreciated (wearing a mask to hide my face, scarf, wearing hoodies, idk)

I'll be happy when I reach that limit weight so I can cut and lose bodyfat again

You mean to say you lost definition as you bf% went up???

 

[Emerq]

You mean to say you lost definition as you bf% went up???

ight tho but its ropefuel, right when i gain a little bodyfat that's when the most social life events happen for some reason

and when i'm shredded to the bone i lock myself in my room

 

[TrueOgreGymcel]

You have some severe body dysmorphia I'm afraid.

 

[Emerq]

You have some severe body dysmorphia I'm afraid.

Yeah I've gone on omegle, few girls calling me " you're kinda twinkish skinny " when i'm wearing long sleeves, and nobody irl really noticing that I train, after I lost all of my bodyfat my dad also says " You need to eat more "

but also on social media some of my posts blew up like crazy when posting my physique, but I deactivated shortly after it went extremely viral and I got 10k followers

people are so shallow and judgemental, I've seen it all for how it is and what its like to be treated for both

 

[0bs]

Thats literally the bulking process