How can I let go of the past?

Itsnotover77

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I made many mistakes in my 17 years of life.
For some it may sound funny, for others serious and maybe some can even relate…

I am working a apprenticeship now in the 2nd year of a mechanic in a company.
Have still a bit less then 2 years left, just this year and the coming one.
I am even one of the best or even the best in the jobschool in this field.
So why am I even doing this apprenticeship and what did I do?

With 14 I was in the 9. grade, one year before my apprenticeship.
I could go to the gymnasium if i had the needed grade in the first semester and even planned it.
Inside me? I wasn’t sure if I actually wanted to but I prefered it.
Never really took the exams seriously and within the last to exams I didn’t make it.
There was a girl, which was interested in me.
She even wanted that we both should go jogging one time for a upcoming small marathon.
I never really said yes, I was young and focused on sports and other things.
Often even got bullied in the 9. grade in my class.
Never beaten, but often almost nobody wanted to do something with me and they often disrespected and insulted me.

The one girl, which was first interested in me in the 8. grade, asked me in the 9. grade after she had a boyfriend for half a year, which girl I find the prettiest in the class etc.
I said some names, which were a bit beautiful and than simply said to her, that she was the prettiest one in the class.(gave her a rating out of ten.)
She blocked me and disrespected me at the whole class the upcoming day.

Wanted another girl but was to shy whilest writing about 2 years with her and I think she lost interest.

Worked 5 months in a apprenticeship on construction with 15, because I couldn’t get something else.

Then started a new apprenticeship with 15.

My goal is just to end this and go to a college or uni.
Sometimes I hated it, when I saw people, which were in worse classes than me at the school, getting good apprenticeships for example in the office, etc.

Regardless, decided to change my path.
 
A lot more things happened like I hated the construction and ha strong acne but whatever.
 
u cant let go of the past, u just become desensitized
 
i dont see mistakes here i dont understand
 
The one girl, which was first interested in me in the 8. grade, asked me in the 9. grade after she had a boyfriend for half a year, which girl I find the prettiest in the class etc.
I said some names, which were a bit beautiful and than simply said to her, that she was the prettiest one in the class.(gave her a rating out of ten.)
She blocked me and disrespected me at the whole class the upcoming day.
brutal
 
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