how come jestering doesn't interest me anymore

[Sceptical]

so much effort and for what
it feels humiliating to entertain normies just for some false backhanded validation

 

[BigBallsLarry]

agree i'd rather stay austically silent than jester

 

[iblamethebrain]

You have to jester a little here and there to climb the career ladder

 

[Sceptical]

You have to jester a little here and there to climb the career ladder

regrets keep piling up

 

[iblamethebrain]

regrets keep piling up

yeah bro the funny part is you’re literally doing the same thing right now just in another mask. you quit clowning for normies because you felt its humiliating, but here you are clowning for random gooners online hoping someone validates your “i’m above this now” take. you call it humiliating but deep down you still want the eyes on you, just flipped the audience. feels less degrading because the crowd here plays the same game you play mentally. you didn’t stop jestering, you just swapped stages my man

 

[Sceptical]

yeah bro the funny part is you’re literally doing the same thing right now just in another mask. you quit clowning for normies because you felt its humiliating, but here you are clowning for random gooners online hoping someone validates your “i’m above this now” take. you call it humiliating but deep down you still want the eyes on you, just flipped the audience. feels less degrading because the crowd here plays the same game you play mentally. you didn’t stop jestering, you just swapped stages my man

if i don't feel like im in control i don't know what to do

 

[iblamethebrain]

if i don't feel like im in control i don't know what to do

Accept semi determinism as lifes ultimate rule.

When do you do stuff? If you want to do it (e.g having urgent need also counts as a "want")
Can you control what you want to do? No, its solely controlled by chemicals

Conclusion = Everything that you do is not in your concious grip and is mathmatically determined.

I think thats plausible. Not even ropefuel i think that shits beautiful