
OxyFanNigga
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i want to be beloved but im so repellant
how do i become loved by people
how do i become loved by people
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then there's your issuei have an extremely nasty personality most of the time and when im not vicious cruel and awful i act retarded autistic and gay and very rarely i can be charming and charismatic but it only happens rarely, i want to reverse my personality traits completely
i truly love talking to people and interacting with people but im so bad at initiating and cultivating environments for doing so and that leads me to self isolating and that makes me bitter and angry at the worldidk just be more likable
hang out with more people
all im asking for is advice or if people can relate to how im feeling i can hear how they introspect on the topicthen there's your issue
idk how you want us to help you with that. you answered your own question.
we have to hide our true selves by building a self image you allow other people privy to but that is so vacant and empty like you said i want genuine love and respect and camaraderie with lots and lots of peopleyou must, not be yourself, but even then, you won't have genuine connections, just people you can communicate to, and that, means absolutely nothing, it won't be fun
are there any traits you don't like about yourself? if yes try to remove them. i am also kind of weird and kinda self aware. that means that you are mature imo. if you know the problem its half fixed.i have an extremely nasty personality most of the time and when im not vicious cruel and awful i act retarded autistic and gay and very rarely i can be charming and charismatic but it only happens rarely, i want to reverse my personality traits completely
Im so bad at this because im selfish and arrogant and frankly unpleasant to be aroundTry to become genuinely interested in someone, like you wanna know how they think and see the world, they'll appreciate that.
thats one of the delusions i tell myself and it just makes my heart blacker and more full of malice and malevolence and malcontent which deteriorates my soul even furtherKill people
Ntmaxxi want to be beloved but im so repellant
how do i become loved by people
I wish I didn't live in fucking Egypt, wish I lived in some Cuckanda or Europe where i can kill and slaughter ppl and not get death penalty (ramirezmaxxing to the core)thats one of the delusions i tell myself and it just makes my heart blacker and more full of malice and malevolence and malcontent which deteriorates my soul even further
okay benjamin netanyahu that checks outI wish I didn't live in fucking Egypt, wish I lived in some Cuckanda or Europe where i can kill and slaughter ppl and not get death penalty (ramirezmaxxing to the core)
good luck with that, having a genuine connection is the only way to get happinesswe have to hide our true selves by building a self image you allow other people privy to but that is so vacant and empty like you said i want genuine love and respect and camaraderie with lots and lots of people
I want to create a new life where i have the control and influence over myself to display competency in all realms so that people find value in loving me but i dont know how to piece together the legos yet
He killed 142k ''people'', I wanna level up like himokay benjamin netanyahu that checks out
I agree with you completely with the first part but I disagree with the second part. "Just be yourself" but I am EVIL. I need to become a "yourself" that is GOOD. but thats the hard part.good luck with that, having a genuine connection is the only way to get happiness
just be yourself, one day, you might get lucky and find your person, maybe online, maybe irl, but don't be fake, or lie to who you are, it will only hurt more day after day
hitler mogs that k/d ratio to the slums of mumbaiHe killed 142k ''people'', I wanna level up like him
Loneliness is addicting, it's kinda a case of this: Locally OptimalIm so bad at this because im selfish and arrogant and frankly unpleasant to be around
there are so many things i need to change
the reason i use drugs and drink alcohol is because i yearn for that warm fulfilled comfortable feeling, and when im sober im rocked by reality so i use drugs and alcohol as much as possible and this further deteriorates me but having no crutch to hold on to and heal my broken mind is unbearably painful and change takes so much time under tension and i havent even started yet
"connecting with someone, is the pure happiness, you can get" and I have allowed myself to fester and rot and waste away with the illusions of happiness and become addicted to isolation and the stories and delusions i paint over reality
you're 100% right.Loneliness is addicting, it's kinda a case of this: Locally Optimal
But yeah, you have to accept that it's going be worse at the start, but you're still reaching towards some tangible goal that you know is good for you.
Small steps and building better habits is all I can really say.
so basically you are willing to change yourself for others? so then, i think, that all the years you lived to now, you are just the result of people wordsI agree with you completely with the first part but I disagree with the second part. "Just be yourself" but I am EVIL. I need to become a "yourself" that is GOOD. but thats the hard part.