Rudeus Dues
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I tried various drugs but they didn't make me lower inhib. Alcohol didn't, nothing you could think of worked. Benzos did but it's tricky it's like not fully causing boldness and by that point i felt I had less choice over actions even though i could drive well enough. I was still talking shyly at peak.
Back when I was younger, I talked to a girl in a quiet room suddenly in normal volume like balls of steel. Or similar in 9th grade. But not anymore. Nowadays I'm concerned about even being heard approaching a girl. The fear isn't even that strong anymore, it's like hesitation is its own thing.
I've appraoched like 9 times over 3 months but it's just one or two sentences and I don't even press harder than I could be. Almost all were on benzos.
But I wonder if I can do it without benzos, and at least be like when I was younger and more oblivious to people around me. So far I'm too sloppy on benzos. Gonna try a new type but it's not a real fix.
Back when I was younger, I talked to a girl in a quiet room suddenly in normal volume like balls of steel. Or similar in 9th grade. But not anymore. Nowadays I'm concerned about even being heard approaching a girl. The fear isn't even that strong anymore, it's like hesitation is its own thing.
I've appraoched like 9 times over 3 months but it's just one or two sentences and I don't even press harder than I could be. Almost all were on benzos.
But I wonder if I can do it without benzos, and at least be like when I was younger and more oblivious to people around me. So far I'm too sloppy on benzos. Gonna try a new type but it's not a real fix.
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