How do I fall asleep with ADHD brain? + Quick org glaze

[NylyDaGOAT]

So last night, I'm so fucking autistic that my brain is literally arguing with itself, discussing Le Fort I Osteotomy + BSSO and CCW Rotation thorought the night so much, that I literally couldn't fall asleep.

How do I fix this?

My GP prescribed me mirtazapine 15mg for nights that I can't fall asleep but it honestly makes me feel like shit and I get extremely tired the next day as well, which usually leads to me being extremely toxic and wishing death upon everybody. (I tried 7.5mg, made me tired and suicidal for 2 days in row, and 30mg made me tired and suicidal for a day as well)

I'm thinking, maybe recording a long ass voice memo before sleep like I always do could do the trick? Just speakmaxx for an hour to a phone before I'll get eventually tired and just fall asleep? I notice that my brain gets hyper-focus always towards the night as well.

I'm undiagnosed ADHD, but I honestly just know that I'm neurodivergent.

I'm not sure if I wanna get necessarily diagnosed with being a fucking short bus special kid — Can't they take my driving license or some shit? What if I wanted gun license when I'm older? Any tips?

I also wanted to mention that I'm kind of grateful that I found community of people who are as retarded as I am - for the most part, as I had struggles with how I perceive myself / that the average NT retard thinks so idiotically and completely differently than I do.

I wish I was normal, but it's just not possible.

 

[underwearremover]

my brain is literally arguing with itself, discussing Le Fort I Osteotomy

gun license

 

[molecule010]

bust one out

 

[NylyDaGOAT]

bust one out

I have already chronically elevated prolactin due to constantly having sex or gooning. I genuinely cannot go a day without fucking, which is extremely unoptimal as elevated prolactin increases inflammation, decreases sleep quality, fucks up your hormonal axis, makes you feel like shit and overfucks your skin quality.

 

[mewing_god69]

So last night, I'm so fucking autistic that my brain is literally arguing with itself, discussing Le Fort I Osteotomy + BSSO and CCW Rotation thorought the night so much, that I literally couldn't fall asleep.

How do I fix this?

My GP prescribed me mirtazapine 15mg for nights that I can't fall asleep but it honestly makes me feel like shit and I get extremely tired the next day as well, which usually leads to me being extremely toxic and wishing death upon everybody. (I tried 7.5mg, made me tired and suicidal for 2 days in row, and 30mg made me tired and suicidal for a day as well)

I'm thinking, maybe recording a long ass voice memo before sleep like I always do could do the trick? Just speakmaxx for an hour to a phone before I'll get eventually tired and just fall asleep? I notice that my brain gets hyper-focus always towards the night as well.

I'm undiagnosed ADHD, but I honestly just know that I'm neurodivergent.

I'm not sure if I wanna get necessarily diagnosed with being a fucking short bus special kid — Can't they take my driving license or some shit? What if I wanted gun license when I'm older? Any tips?

I also wanted to mention that I'm kind of grateful that I found community of people who are as retarded as I am - for the most part, as I had struggles with how I perceive myself / that the average NT retard thinks so idiotically and completely differently than I do.

I wish I was normal, but it's just not possible.

my bro just another me