ethanwannabe
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i don't know what to really do anymore, i walk around and people just laugh at me. I struggle alot with my looks, whenever i go outside i really struggle to function. No ones texted me for months i don't think it ever gets better. I feel like all i do is cope and fucking rot but it's genuinely never gotten better. People make fun of the way i walk and talk and even look and it's so fucking hard for me, i've never made a friend in my life before and i don't know how to socialize, i try to talk to people but they always just look at me awkwardly and there's nothing i can do but accept that they don't want to talk, even people that share my interests seem to not want to talk to me. I don't know what im doing wrong, i try my best to socialize im white im 6 feet tall im very skinny and all i feel is hate in my body because i can't accept the fact no one really wants to talk to me. The only socializing i get is on video games and even there i get bullied, people even make fun of my looks when i dont talk i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. I've decided it's time to stop coping and i've started to hit the gym and im trying to eat better but it was like this when i was an athlete and i eat mostly healthy food. Is there a point to even keep trying anymore and im just coping? Does it get better? i feel like i should just give up and rope soon but i really love this world, it just seems like everything in my life goes wrong no matter what. Girls don't even talk to me, and guys are worse because they just make fun of me. I really wouldn't care but everyone is like this, i just wanna be loved but im so hated. I can't look at myself in the mirror because it hurts me, i've started starving myself because of my stomach looks in bed... I don't even look at my phone, no one texts me, the last time someone i knew texted me was 6 months ago and they were asking if i could do something for them. Does anyone have advice on maybe how i can make it a little easier to cope? Like maybe some strategy to make some friends that's hard to fuck up like buying people shit or stuff like that, i wouldn't mind if they left i just need to work on my social skills and maybe learn a couple social queues im missing. Ik this might seem pathetic but i'd do anything to atleast fix what's wrong with me. Could i just be so ugly no one wants to or just talk so weird that people think im autistic and dont wanna talk to me, i'd rather it be the first because i can just cope online.
TLDR: should i try to ascend or are people just so mean it won't matter and i should just rope instead of living my shitty life
TLDR: should i try to ascend or are people just so mean it won't matter and i should just rope instead of living my shitty life
