Mrƙ
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Im 17 years old and i have been really afraid of my future all my life because i am usless.
Im neurodivergent with an iq of 83(the test was done at a medical facilty during 2022, so it might be a lttle higher), im high inhib, i have adhd, im the oldest sibling in my family(i have 2 younger sisters), i have low test and oblivious parents, im really lazy and i have barely any personal space, im also really dependent, i cant fit in, i see hard work or effort usless because i always fail, im a virgin and a loser.
Im 6'1, average(maybe a bit narrow) frame with equal hip to chest ratio, only good facial feature i have are my eyes, im always bloated, i have shit hyoid and tounge tie, i get made fun of because of my russian accent when i speak in english, i have mid-high pitched voice, i have acne/cyst scars all over my big ass forehead that i hide with bangs to prevent anyone seeing my shitty ass hairline AND I FUCKING HATE MY CROOKED YELLOW PISS TEETH.
Im clueless on what to do, i always feel like i never have time to do someting and when i have it i dont do anything because i dont know on what to do.
I dont wanna say that im selfish but i envy people who know what yo do with their lives and can do stuff with ease while i struggle, and they have the audacity to tell me that i should "work harder". I cant even rope because im worried to leave my parents or friends(i have only 2, 1 online and 1 irl). Im a fucking mess, i dont even know if a therapist could help.
Please could someone help me understand on what to do, because i cant keep living like this.
(Please dont make fun of me im just trying to find help)
Im neurodivergent with an iq of 83(the test was done at a medical facilty during 2022, so it might be a lttle higher), im high inhib, i have adhd, im the oldest sibling in my family(i have 2 younger sisters), i have low test and oblivious parents, im really lazy and i have barely any personal space, im also really dependent, i cant fit in, i see hard work or effort usless because i always fail, im a virgin and a loser.
Im 6'1, average(maybe a bit narrow) frame with equal hip to chest ratio, only good facial feature i have are my eyes, im always bloated, i have shit hyoid and tounge tie, i get made fun of because of my russian accent when i speak in english, i have mid-high pitched voice, i have acne/cyst scars all over my big ass forehead that i hide with bangs to prevent anyone seeing my shitty ass hairline AND I FUCKING HATE MY CROOKED YELLOW PISS TEETH.
Im clueless on what to do, i always feel like i never have time to do someting and when i have it i dont do anything because i dont know on what to do.
I dont wanna say that im selfish but i envy people who know what yo do with their lives and can do stuff with ease while i struggle, and they have the audacity to tell me that i should "work harder". I cant even rope because im worried to leave my parents or friends(i have only 2, 1 online and 1 irl). Im a fucking mess, i dont even know if a therapist could help.
Please could someone help me understand on what to do, because i cant keep living like this.
(Please dont make fun of me im just trying to find help)
