how do you deal with OCD ??

[zinsa]

i recently self reflected and noticed i have sevear ocd for example when i come home and i take off my shoes my mind tells me they are not allowed to touch and they have to be perfectly parralel or i will lose my limbs or when im listening to music before i skip to the next song i have to restart the song to the beginning like i cant skip it while its playing in the middle only at the first second or i will get hit by a car next time i cross the road. yk thoughts like these and its gone so bad to where i wake up and try to make it go away and ive learned only way to make them go away is to not interact with them basically a buddha mindest towards it buts its really hard to do but i often enter a state of egotistic pride where i feel good but those ocd thoughts creep in and you feel low self esteem because how can a internal thought have such of a effect on my mood, my life is good, i got good people around me yet i get abnormally disturbed when my mind shows me a vivid scene of me losing my limbs and its absurd and disgusting and i think this is the most humbling part, i know how the mind works i study carl jung and so on and yet im still a qoute victim of compulsive thoughts and i barely hear people talk about it yk they are busy with the contents of the world while im mostly in my head not fully aware of whats going on around me because im trying to make these thoughts go away the only thing that makes it go away is social interactions, sports and ofc just meditating but those are activities tho but when im idle these ocd thoughts come back and its exhausting and its giving me apathy

actually typing my experience out like this helped me lol i feel allot clearer now
i havent spoken to anyone about this or expressed my experience outloud either writing or speech till now