Zakai4real
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I’m 5’7 and there’s this girl I know that lives quite far away but has family near me so she’d visit once a year or so but I only actually saw her this year for the first time but we’ve known each other since 2024 anyway she’s like 5’8 just taller than me and drop dead gorgeous and we fell in love and blah blah and I obviously have been highly concious about my height since 3rd grade when everyone grew and I didn’t, I was 15 when I hit 5ft for the first time, anyway we meet this year in may for the first time and we kissed a couple times and she changed infront of me but I was just being as respectful as possible since I actually loved this girl and shit and anyway she was here for 2 weeks and that was around the 5th day she was here. A week goes by and she tells my friends girlfriend not to tell me but she doesn’t like me in that way really and more like a brother and she’s just not in the right space mentally for a relationship (she made the first move to kiss me) but wtv I obviously get mad that night and there was a festival and went there and made out with a 6ft girl but after that I kinda yk distanced myself from her cause I was distraught and disgusted in myself for doing what I did and just not being enough, 2 weeks after she left we start talking again because i was still in love and she tells me that after she called me a brother she went and kissed a 6’2ft guy. She is the reason I’m now taking PED’s and everything like it hurt me so bad and I don’t really have much emotion left in me cause family problems and much much more so I resort to coping. I don’t have feelings for her anymore but still broke me that she didn’t want a relationship and regretted kissing me cause she saw me as “brother” but kissed a 6’2 guy like I just can’t win
