Sorry to hear that bro, I experience passive suicidal ideation too so I know how it feels. Do you ever feel like you’re better off dead than living like this?
What makes you keep going?
now, this is my topic
, anyway I want to kill myself because I hate myself, I literally don't even leave the house anymore except to go to school, I'm ashamed to even be seen and now that school is over I'll spend my summer locked in the house and then probably kill myself. I'm 19 and I've never had a relationship, not even a single kiss, this thing depresses me and makes me think that I'm not actually an incel by chance. I ordered some sodium nitrite, give me 3/4 months and I'll kill myself I think
I feel like most users here have considered it tbh
Don’t do it bro, it’s not worth it trust. You’re still young so there’s still time to start all over again, being in a relationship isn’t everything in lifenow, this is my topic
I’m not even lying , many single male normie thinks about this , maybe even chads btw . It’s just human nature when feeling extremely depressed
That’s true
how?
im pretty confident in myself
what would effort bring you? just think about it
Yes, a lot of times.
You’re NT?
yes exactly, nothing you do matters. why why not kill yourself
id say so
Yeah life is pretty shit anyways, we’re all going through it atp
How did you find this forum then?
been blackpilled since i was like 13 i knew about all the mewing thumbpulling bs way before it got big
But isn’t anything better than nothing?
Normies have good lives else we would already have Revolts.
i don't know, it's not even about "having a girlfriend" anymore. i just hate myself, it's hard to wake up every morning and avoid the mirror and when i see my reflection i feel pure disgust. i don't even feel understood, i don't even know if i should define nt honestly, i just know that i don't feel understood by other people, i feel detached and this makes everything worse, i can't even express my feelings and even if i were able to do it i wouldn't have anyone willing to listen to me, i think that suicide is the most sensible answer to all my problems. I also don't think I have any hope for the future and the mere thought of growing up further and becoming a full-fledged adult makes me even more anxious. but i'm not even sad about it, on the contrary, i'm tired and i think that at least if i kms my suffering will end
Real
How old are you? I bet you’re still young so there’s hope for change don’t give up just yet
as I said before, I'm 19, I'm young but I really can't take it anymore
Is there anything that can keep you going? Like your cats or maybe your friends?
Could you clarify what you mean by existential thoughts? Like thinking what’s the point of life and all that stuff?
ye like first time was im gonna die one day so why not now and legitimately almost ended it all
wasn't even depressed
I have a cat and I love her with all my heart, but honestly it's not enough. I also have friends in a different school, I had a good relationship with them and I considered them true friends, but now I don't go out with them anymore, not because of them, simply it's me who doesn't want to, actually being seen by others creates a strong shame in me. so lets say they don't give me a real reason to stay alive either. the only person I'm truly sorry for if I were to die is my mother, she truly loves me and doesn't deserve all this pain. the fact is that it's my life and I do what I want, I don't deserve all this pain either jfl
Yeah that’s how our brain be thinking sometimes. And it sounds logical tbh, like what’s the point if we all gonna die some dayye like first time was im gonna die one day so why not now and legitimately almost ended it all
I’m just asking saar
. Nothing serious
Yes "saaar" but ever since I've seen your profile picture for the very first time "bhaijaan" it's been very serious for me...I’m just asking saar
I get it. Being seen by others can be overwhelming sometimes.
I’m sorry, that sounds like a lot. Why not give it a chance though, I believe life is inherently meaningless too but just live til the end to see where it goes yk
Yeah, being lonely and also dealing with family issues definitely makes it worse. Have you moved out though?
I’m 17 turning 18 im planning to move out when I graduate uni
The thoughts come in but I promised to God and myself that I would never do such a thing. There's no point in doing it if you ask me, no matter what your going through.
yes, let's say that as a reasoning it makes sense, but if a person lives mainly to suffer and hate himself it's not the best, I mean not that good things can't happen to me in life, but I'm pretty sure that there are more bad things than good ones, is it really worth it? i honestly dont know
If you don’t mind me asking, do you have abusive parents by any chance?
Yeah that sounds alot like body dysmorphia. Being on .org doesn’t help either it makes you feel suicidal sometimes
That’s good. Living away is better anyway, except for the financial part
