How many of you guys on here have considered roping and why?

[truecel_4]

My mental illness

What did you get diagnosed with?

 

[hunnidrounds]

What did you get diagnosed with?

Schizophrenia. One of the most severe mental illnesses.

 

[truecel_4]

yes, let's say that as a reasoning it makes sense, but if a person lives mainly to suffer and hate himself it's not the best, I mean not that good things can't happen to me in life, but I'm pretty sure that there are more bad things than good ones, is it really worth it? i honestly dont know

Yeah in that case suicide is rational, anyone should not be living a life that’s full of constant suffering. But it’s still not reasonable enough to say it won’t get better in a few years imo, what if things change?

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

Yeah in that case suicide is rational, anyone should not be living a life that’s full of constant suffering. But it’s still not reasonable enough to say it won’t get better in a few years imo, what if things change?

yes you are right, if things don't get worse i plan on trying to stay alive for a while, maybe get a job until i finish school and save some money. i could do some hardmaxx and i would definitely be happier, maybe from there things could improve significantly

 

[truecel_4]

Schizophrenia. One of the most severe mental illnesses.

Damn that’s tough. What do you think’s the hardest thing about it for you right now?

 

[truecel_4]

yes you are right, if things don't get worse i plan on trying to stay alive for a while, maybe get a job until i finish school and save some money. i could do some hardmaxx and i would definitely be happier, maybe from there things could improve significantly

They can get better, that’s why you gotta stay man. Give it another chance.

 

[Kiwi'sSub5]

They can get better, that’s why you gotta stay man. Give it another chance.

thanks for the support man

 

[truecel_4]

thanks for the support man

All good, hope things work out for you g

 

[RealNinja]

If you don’t mind me asking, do you have abusive parents by any chance?

No I don’t have abusive parents. Everything kind of started when I got diagnosed with cancer at age 3. I was sick for years and couldn’t play with other kids or go to school which stunted my social development early. The steroids also made me fat and I kept gaining weight until age 15-16 when I lost 100lbs. Just felt different and outcasted my whole childhood. Parents divorced, I got into doing drugs, etc. Growing up fat and ugly and not being liked by people gave me lasting mental scars even though I mog now.

Yeah that sounds alot like body dysmorphia. Being on .org doesn’t help either it makes you feel suicidal sometimes

Yes I do have body dysmorphia.

 

[truecel_4]

No I don’t have abusive parents. Everything kind of started when I got diagnosed with cancer at age 3. I was sick for years and couldn’t play with other kids or go to school which stunted my social development early. The steroids also made me fat and I kept gaining weight until age 15-16 when I lost 100lbs. Just felt different and outcasted my whole childhood. Parents divorced, I got into doing drugs, etc. Growing up fat and ugly and not being liked by people gave me lasting mental scars even though I mog now.

Yes I do have body dysmorphia.

Sorry to hear that man. I’m stunted too, not socially but emotionally, so I get what it’s like to feel different from others my age. Growing up thinking you’re ugly is hell tbh. It really messes with your head. You said you don’t have suicidal thoughts anymore, but do they still cross your mind sometimes?

 

[Heightpilldealer]

I would've roped already but I remember I hide behind a facade with a shit ton of ego publically and claim suicide is for pussies so I don't wanna be rolling in the afterlife watching people laugh me for dying to my own karma

 

[BoneJovi]

i don't know, it's not even about "having a girlfriend" anymore. i just hate myself, it's hard to wake up every morning and avoid the mirror and when i see my reflection i feel pure disgust. i don't even feel understood, i don't even know if i should define nt honestly, i just know that i don't feel understood by other people, i feel detached and this makes everything worse, i can't even express my feelings and even if i were able to do it i wouldn't have anyone willing to listen to me, i think that suicide is the most sensible answer to all my problems. I also don't think I have any hope for the future and the mere thought of growing up further and becoming a full-fledged adult makes me even more anxious. but i'm not even sad about it, on the contrary, i'm tired and i think that at least if i kms my suffering will end

don’t

 

[RapeAllFemales]

even though I ascended it all seems unreal I don't know how to explain it, having spent my teenage years as a sub5 destroyed me inside

 

[truecel_4]

suicide is for pussies

Nah people just don’t wanna talk about it or anything that makes them uncomfortable that’s why

 

[truecel_4]

even though I ascended it all seems unreal I don't know how to explain it, having spent my teenage years as a sub5 destroyed me inside

Do you feel better now that you’ve ascended? Or still the same

 

[R@m@]

i have passive suicidal thoughts. I don't see my life as worth saving, as worthwhile in any possible way, so it may aswell not exist. But somehow I don't really have the direct urge to kill myself, but I already consider my life lost and not worth putting any effort into

 

[registerfasterusing]

I honestly think its the most logical answer to life so i probably will at one point

 

[RapeAllFemales]

Do you feel better now that you’ve ascended? Or still the same

I feel better, knowing that I look a little better than average gives me a sense of calm

Improving your look is more powerful than any antidepressant or low inhib drug in my experience

 

[truecel_4]

I feel better, knowing that I look a little better than average gives me a sense of calm

That’s good then. It’s reassuring to know you’ve achieved your goal, but I wonder if sometimes you still feel shit about what happened before

 

[halfbloodaryanmaxxe]

I did consider it some time.
But I wasnt thinking straight obviously

 

[truecel_4]

I did consider it some time.
But I wasnt thinking straight obviously

Yeah same tbh

 

[Basedking]

I’m 17 turning 18 im planning to move out when I graduate uni

I am Also thinking a out the same when u have to deal with controlling ones. How will u sustain yourself after moving out. Will u do any average job less work location dependent or some CS degree etc. ?

 

[Basedking]

even though I ascended it all seems unreal I don't know how to explain it, having spent my teenage years as a sub5 destroyed me inside

Our youth have finished and normies are on the next milestone of their life. While people like us r stuck in high school

 

[Pento]

Since joining this forum my QOL has improved greatly, life really is just about how you look.

I’ve attempted before, because I simply gave up. There was no point in continuing, especially after trying so hard as a teenager only to be met with the unfortunate of life. Like life slapped me soo fucking hard at 17, I genuinely think majority of people would’ve ended themselves if they were in my shoes. If I had a gun I would’ve ended it. I can’t believe I pulled myself out of that situation too. I don’t think I can talk about some of the things since I might risk getting kicked. However it really was a it’s over moment.
Homeless
Suffering from diseases
Had infections
Etc

The only thing that kept me going was the hope that things would eventually get better.

 

[selfascender]

I am Also thinking an out the same when u have to deal with controlling ones. How will u sustain yourself after moving out. Will u do any average job less work location dependent or some CS degree etc. ?

I’ll try to get myself a good decent job ofc given the level of expertise I’m studying and the high ranking uni i go to .
Then I’ll move to some one bedroom place until I can get something better

 

[JamesSapphire_8PSL]

Yes, a lot of times.

I would say about half my days are bad days nowadays where I consider myself to be better off dead. The other half of my life are 'neutral' at best.

overall my life has no purpose or point of being.

Man just give yourself time to fins this purpose!!! And if you don't like the way your life is going, you have to change-it no matter what, because you where born to enjoy this life, not to rot in desperation. Think about it, and find little things that gives you a little reason to live. Music its such a thing for me, and even thought music won't magically make you happy, it can help you with a little motivation.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Man just give yourself time to fins this purpose!!! And if you don't like the way your life is going, you have to change-it no matter what, because you where born to enjoy this life, not to rot in desperation. Think about it, and find little things that gives you a little reason to live. Music its such a thing for me, and even thought music won't magically make you happy, it can help you with a little motivation.

theres nothing for me in this world, life has nothing to offer.

ive been depressed since I was 14yo or so when I got rejected by my own family and peers. Now I just kill time, survive 1 day at a time. No hopes or dreams any more.

 

[wollet2]

theres nothing for me in this world, life has nothing to offer.

ive been depressed since I was 14yo or so when I got rejected by my own family and peers. Now I just kill time, survive 1 day at a time. No hopes or dreams any more.

if you werent rejected do you think youd turn different
do you get any aspirations on molly

 

[JamesSapphire_8PSL]

Bro then search! Things will not get to you by magic. You can start by going on little walks to pretty places. I recomend you to travel everywhere, maybe if you see diferent things and cultures you could discover new things that motivate you or that at least give you hope. You are so young bro, the easy thing to do is to just give up and rott in your bed. You have to fight with everything you can to pursue happiness.

 

[got.daim]

Just wondering about the rate of people wanting to commit on .org, since I’ve seen a lot of users already taking their own lives. Why did you want to do it, and what made you change your mind?

me, life just hasn't been the same, i had an insane peak and now i'm living an average life and i want to kms

 

[MoggerGaston]

if you werent rejected do you think youd turn different

yes, i have insane low self-esteem due to the rejection. It has made it impossible to enjoy life cuz feeling unworthy, not good enough, is evert present in the back of my mind

do you get any aspirations on molly

yes, sometimes on molly I feel like life is worth living. I then feel better for a couple of days

 

[Hernan]

Just wondering about the rate of people wanting to commit on .org, since I’ve seen a lot of users already taking their own lives. Why did you want to do it, and what made you change your mind?

because current living is dogshit.