Areuready
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My whole life I always wondered why I was treated differently. From age 5 I already knew I was being treated with disrespect. As I got older I noticed the rude and angry undertones I'd receive and the kinder praise other kids would get. As a teenager I was a bluepilled moron.
Granted, I did have a few girls approach me in high-school and I had my first kiss at 11 with a girl the same age I had spent the day with on a playground.
My first boob feel was in middle school and my first girlfriend was a girl snd her friends cornering me and telling me I need to go out with her(different girl from the tiddy touch)
I'll skip over high school and just say that i ended up dating 2 different girls my 10th grade year and both of them were obsessed with me I lost my virginity at 16.
At 17 the last official girlfriend i ever had. She really fine, Cute face, big brown eyes, skinny, smol, B cup, angel face. I was a bluepilled moron, i knew i was ugly but I thought all you need to do is approach. So i did, and we ended up becoming friends, I asked her to skype (2013) first as a joke and then she started hoping on skype with me after school all the time. We ended up dating off and on for nearly 3 years and those 3 years brutally black pilled me she was nuts, hormonal, anger issues, daddy issues. We were constantly on again off again, until one day and the last time we were officially an item at 19 she officially broke up with me for good.
This is when i found out with out a doubt, jaw is law. The guys she ended up dating after me were all the high school wresters she didn't get to date.
Brutal. Then when they would break up she would attempt to contact me it was just a brutal experience. All the guys she was dating and fucking were all the chads she "passed up" Everything made sense though. that's when i really started to discover the black pill. Everything in my life made sense, my lack of dating life as i got older, the reason so many people took issue with me it was because of my face and nothing more.
This ex and I, any time she was single, she'd flirt with me and tempt me back, she'd send nudes or act interested, but i knew better. When she ended up going to college is when she feigned interest in me one last time. We were getting along greatly and then she hit me with the "I can't date anyone right now... i just want friends and I need to focus on school... I can't have anything like another relationship distract me because that's all i'll be able to focus on". By that point i was already giga black pilled so i knew what it meant and told her just to go away for good and all she does is gaslight me anyways.
I haven't bothered trying with anyone since then because I know the song and dance. The problem is my face, I have had for a long time the personality and interests needed to have a girlfriend, but not the looks. So i just don't try or talk to anyone anymore. The only thing that matters is face. Had i had a good face none of that would have ever happened and that's how all my attempted relationships will end. I can personalitymaxx but all that leads to is confused women that want you for your personality but they just can't get past the face part. Also over the years of isolation and black pilling i've gone mad/crazy.
Fuck therapy and fuck meds. I see reality. I hope my story makes some people seethe as i know a lot of this board mogs me and i'm very ugly and "it's over for me" but it's always nice to remember at least i got a taste of the slayer life before my life was ruined.
Granted, I did have a few girls approach me in high-school and I had my first kiss at 11 with a girl the same age I had spent the day with on a playground.
My first boob feel was in middle school and my first girlfriend was a girl snd her friends cornering me and telling me I need to go out with her(different girl from the tiddy touch)
I'll skip over high school and just say that i ended up dating 2 different girls my 10th grade year and both of them were obsessed with me I lost my virginity at 16.
At 17 the last official girlfriend i ever had. She really fine, Cute face, big brown eyes, skinny, smol, B cup, angel face. I was a bluepilled moron, i knew i was ugly but I thought all you need to do is approach. So i did, and we ended up becoming friends, I asked her to skype (2013) first as a joke and then she started hoping on skype with me after school all the time. We ended up dating off and on for nearly 3 years and those 3 years brutally black pilled me she was nuts, hormonal, anger issues, daddy issues. We were constantly on again off again, until one day and the last time we were officially an item at 19 she officially broke up with me for good.
This is when i found out with out a doubt, jaw is law. The guys she ended up dating after me were all the high school wresters she didn't get to date.
Brutal. Then when they would break up she would attempt to contact me it was just a brutal experience. All the guys she was dating and fucking were all the chads she "passed up" Everything made sense though. that's when i really started to discover the black pill. Everything in my life made sense, my lack of dating life as i got older, the reason so many people took issue with me it was because of my face and nothing more.
This ex and I, any time she was single, she'd flirt with me and tempt me back, she'd send nudes or act interested, but i knew better. When she ended up going to college is when she feigned interest in me one last time. We were getting along greatly and then she hit me with the "I can't date anyone right now... i just want friends and I need to focus on school... I can't have anything like another relationship distract me because that's all i'll be able to focus on". By that point i was already giga black pilled so i knew what it meant and told her just to go away for good and all she does is gaslight me anyways.
I haven't bothered trying with anyone since then because I know the song and dance. The problem is my face, I have had for a long time the personality and interests needed to have a girlfriend, but not the looks. So i just don't try or talk to anyone anymore. The only thing that matters is face. Had i had a good face none of that would have ever happened and that's how all my attempted relationships will end. I can personalitymaxx but all that leads to is confused women that want you for your personality but they just can't get past the face part. Also over the years of isolation and black pilling i've gone mad/crazy.
Fuck therapy and fuck meds. I see reality. I hope my story makes some people seethe as i know a lot of this board mogs me and i'm very ugly and "it's over for me" but it's always nice to remember at least i got a taste of the slayer life before my life was ruined.
