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So I'm 16 years old and I'm kinda coming to the realization that it's over I've never had a girlfriend and only 1 girl has ever been "talking to me" she was actually cute by unbiased standards but I think she quit talking to me after she realized how ugly I actually am. Everyone around me is talking to girls and dating them and I kind of get left behind.I go to party's and I'm always feel like I'm the ugliest person there even when ik I'm not by objective standards. I'm not repulsive to look at or anything, but something is not right with my face I'm so close butt so far from being good looking, my nose is to big and my maxilla is flat and my jaw has mid recession I'm 5'9. When I'm at these party's all I can do is look around the room and analyze people faces and who are the most attractive/unatractive people in the room (sounds cringe Ik) and these hoes (rude but true) hit on me the odd time but I'm so insecure I can't even bring myself to show affection or flirt with somone cause I feel like I'm just harassing tf out of them. Like when girls snap me (btw I hate Snapchat )a picture of there face or somthing and then it's like expected that you send one back cause it shows your interested or sum bs like that. It makes me kinda depressed cause I'm so chopped I can't even send a picture of my face to a girl because it feels embarrassing. Like I feel like she will open it and show her friends and they will just laugh at how ugly I am, so I just send like half my face and I seem "dry". Snapchat is good for attractive people ugly ppl like me should only be allowed to use text msg or somthing lol, I would enjoy that more.
I kind of got bullied my whole life up until now, I mean I still get bullied but it's just people talking shit about me or whatever I don't think anyone really has it out for me but I know they think I'm weird or somthing. I try my best to be NT and stuff and I'm usually pretty good but I always slip up and say some bs that is like weird. Mostly when I blackout drinking I start ranting about all the surgeries im gonna get, luckily this has just been to my friendS who don't know anything about the blackpill so they just laugh. But one time at a grad party I went up to the principals wife who was there supervising and told her how I was gonna get a rhino plastey and it keeps me up at night sometimes
. I'm a normal guy like I play volleyball and will probably play div 2/3 volleyball, I have enough friends to where I seem normal but tbh sometimes it feels like a chore hanging out with them, like I'm only doing it to pass as like a normal dude, I'm definitely a incel but on the outside I'd say I'm very extroverted just so I don't seem weird. I spend most my days thinking about my failed talking stage that liked me first I think about how it would feel to hug her and hold her hand and to take all the dumb photos of each other and go to volleyball together and how it felt when I first started talking to her or sending that text that made your heart beat like crazy and her friends telling about how she reacted to what you said and all that stuff that made me feel alive and also think about how I missed my chance at the baddest girl I could feasibly get, where did I go wrong, now every girl that try's to talk to me is just not it. Ik this makes me seem like I have some sort of incel superiority complex but I do understand I would probally be a looksmatch with some of these girls but I just can't forget what I almost once had so like it's hard to feel that way about a girl when all I can think about is the one I almost had yk
I'm pretty fucking miserable for the most part, I start most my days watching my tik tok favorited wich are just ropefuel vids then I usually ball my eyes out as I get in the shower and make sure I'm well cleaned and groomed so I can try to look good if I didn't debloat or my hair looks like shit sometimes I will just skip school because the punishment of doing more work the next day makes up for the torture that would be walking through school even uglier than usual. In the odd case that this happens I usually just try to stay as far away from any women in my school until the day is over (sounds gay asf but whatever) my heart is like pounding during these days and I feel like I'm gonna burst into tears or throw up genuinely the worst feeling in the world but I stay locked in because crying and being at school would be worse than being ugly at school then I get to my car after school and let out a big sigh before listening to either underground rap or Devon Hendrix and all that kind of shit then I go home and eat some fuckass whole foods and chug some water and minerals all just to look 10x worse than the people who know nothing about the balckpill and eat like shit and don't worry about there bloat or read nutrition labels
Then I go to my room and hit the cart and look at my face in the mirror and practice talking to people in made up conversation I slay just work on my expression and how to not look like a retard
I can't wait to move away and go play volleyball somewhere far away and have a fresh start where I can be whoever I want to be, go to all the party's and nobody would know me for being cringe I could have a group of friends I actually like and mabye get a girl so I can finally feel happy hopefully I can glow up and develop properly if not I will probably end up killing myself because if I can't be attractive what's the point in living. And after all. I just want to be a cool dude that everyone likes and to have a good looking girlfriend. Also I guess I should include a defence image of what I look like to paint a better picture for ppl reading this I added "good and bad" pictures of myself
From my private album where I track my bloat
Idk I hope somone on here can relate
I kind of got bullied my whole life up until now, I mean I still get bullied but it's just people talking shit about me or whatever I don't think anyone really has it out for me but I know they think I'm weird or somthing. I try my best to be NT and stuff and I'm usually pretty good but I always slip up and say some bs that is like weird. Mostly when I blackout drinking I start ranting about all the surgeries im gonna get, luckily this has just been to my friendS who don't know anything about the blackpill so they just laugh. But one time at a grad party I went up to the principals wife who was there supervising and told her how I was gonna get a rhino plastey and it keeps me up at night sometimes
. I'm a normal guy like I play volleyball and will probably play div 2/3 volleyball, I have enough friends to where I seem normal but tbh sometimes it feels like a chore hanging out with them, like I'm only doing it to pass as like a normal dude, I'm definitely a incel but on the outside I'd say I'm very extroverted just so I don't seem weird. I spend most my days thinking about my failed talking stage that liked me first I think about how it would feel to hug her and hold her hand and to take all the dumb photos of each other and go to volleyball together and how it felt when I first started talking to her or sending that text that made your heart beat like crazy and her friends telling about how she reacted to what you said and all that stuff that made me feel alive and also think about how I missed my chance at the baddest girl I could feasibly get, where did I go wrong, now every girl that try's to talk to me is just not it. Ik this makes me seem like I have some sort of incel superiority complex but I do understand I would probally be a looksmatch with some of these girls but I just can't forget what I almost once had so like it's hard to feel that way about a girl when all I can think about is the one I almost had yk
I'm pretty fucking miserable for the most part, I start most my days watching my tik tok favorited wich are just ropefuel vids then I usually ball my eyes out as I get in the shower and make sure I'm well cleaned and groomed so I can try to look good if I didn't debloat or my hair looks like shit sometimes I will just skip school because the punishment of doing more work the next day makes up for the torture that would be walking through school even uglier than usual. In the odd case that this happens I usually just try to stay as far away from any women in my school until the day is over (sounds gay asf but whatever) my heart is like pounding during these days and I feel like I'm gonna burst into tears or throw up genuinely the worst feeling in the world but I stay locked in because crying and being at school would be worse than being ugly at school then I get to my car after school and let out a big sigh before listening to either underground rap or Devon Hendrix and all that kind of shit then I go home and eat some fuckass whole foods and chug some water and minerals all just to look 10x worse than the people who know nothing about the balckpill and eat like shit and don't worry about there bloat or read nutrition labels
Then I go to my room and hit the cart and look at my face in the mirror and practice talking to people in made up conversation I slay just work on my expression and how to not look like a retard
I can't wait to move away and go play volleyball somewhere far away and have a fresh start where I can be whoever I want to be, go to all the party's and nobody would know me for being cringe I could have a group of friends I actually like and mabye get a girl so I can finally feel happy hopefully I can glow up and develop properly if not I will probably end up killing myself because if I can't be attractive what's the point in living. And after all. I just want to be a cool dude that everyone likes and to have a good looking girlfriend. Also I guess I should include a defence image of what I look like to paint a better picture for ppl reading this I added "good and bad" pictures of myself
From my private album where I track my bloat
Idk I hope somone on here can relate
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