adhamdhanial
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got bullied hard since the 2nd year of highschool prolly bcs of my looks. never been the same after.
I was the head prefects in my primary school but after went through bullying in high school,my personality changed 360°.
Cant interact with people like without getting anxious,cant speak infront of many without getting hella shaky,always overthinks of what people think about me 24/7. I cant show my emotions like people normally suddenly *not intentionally like my brain js cant*. Became so lazy to join anything in my school when literally i was joining and contributing in everything in my primary school.
Parents keep putting pressure on academics saying i wasnt great enough and keep reminding of my perfomance in my primary school. Even though i wasnt even terrible at academics rn i got 3.64 gpa last semester and cgpa of 3.51.
Parents desperately want me to be 'success' by becoming a high achiever and be the best at academics when i dont even care about grades anymore.
but uts not like i got bad grades or sum im average as i stated my gpa and cgpa.
I dont wanna be who my parents want me to be but theyll just keep putting pressure on me by blaming me for not being the best at academics. They were both a teacher. Im the last sibling in my family and my other 3 siblings doesnt achieve straight A's in their highschool final so the pressure is even crazier on me.
atp i js see them as capitalism slaves.
i love gaming,fictions and investing.
How do I live life and make it on this earth genuinely.
I was the head prefects in my primary school but after went through bullying in high school,my personality changed 360°.
Cant interact with people like without getting anxious,cant speak infront of many without getting hella shaky,always overthinks of what people think about me 24/7. I cant show my emotions like people normally suddenly *not intentionally like my brain js cant*. Became so lazy to join anything in my school when literally i was joining and contributing in everything in my primary school.
Parents keep putting pressure on academics saying i wasnt great enough and keep reminding of my perfomance in my primary school. Even though i wasnt even terrible at academics rn i got 3.64 gpa last semester and cgpa of 3.51.
Parents desperately want me to be 'success' by becoming a high achiever and be the best at academics when i dont even care about grades anymore.
but uts not like i got bad grades or sum im average as i stated my gpa and cgpa.
I dont wanna be who my parents want me to be but theyll just keep putting pressure on me by blaming me for not being the best at academics. They were both a teacher. Im the last sibling in my family and my other 3 siblings doesnt achieve straight A's in their highschool final so the pressure is even crazier on me.
atp i js see them as capitalism slaves.
i love gaming,fictions and investing.
How do I live life and make it on this earth genuinely.
