ruhi the tall sub5
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- Jun 20, 2026
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Guys I'm tired of this shit. Just registered an account here but was reading and in it since years. I already harmed myself more than couple of times and basically I've nobody to vent or money to therapy. I am not nd but i just can't see people's face normally anymore, mine as well. And knowing that genetics + early development is all you got and you can't do shit about it is insane. Almost all the softmaxxes are cope and you can't hardmaxx your way out of this sub5-ltn hole without getting complications and permanent side effects either. Moreover you'll probably turn out uncanny or off, with a big chance. I just want to go back in time and prevent myself from getting this reality check(bp, horn and halo effects or what the fuck ever you call it) and unlearn anything about it. As i said I was always very low inhib and nt. But as time passes i can't stop being hyperaware of my looks and other people's thus i can't function properly. And it is literally doesn't get any better with time. I really harmed myself physically to a degree that i wear bandages(telling people it's style) or wearing long sleeve clothes even in this hot days at the middle of europe. I know most of u are also going this things on a daily basis but how do you cope? Or what should i do? I don't exactly know how to ask. I'm just asking for help i guess. Please don't say ldar. I can't i have to finish uni and start working i have to deal with people everyday all day