MoggerGaston
Nobody mogs like Gaston
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I ascended quite a lot, in a lot of ways over the past years.
From incel to having a gf. From no money to making decent money. From no social circle to being part of a popular fraternity.
However what was always there was the fact that I didn't feel like my life was improving in any way and it didn't motivate me to keep it going and/or get an even better life for myself. I often just felt like a fraud, that I was about to be exposed. And also that I didn't belong with these people and that I didn't deserve a good life.
So it always ended up detoriorating after a while till life was back to being subhuman.
Easy example is also leanmaxxing: I get lean after months of dieting. Notice some benefits from the way I look and how people treat me. But it leaves me with little to no dopamine, no motivation, no reward. And eventually I end up getting fat again.
I get a gf after months of asking out girls, going on (failed) dates, etc. Despite the relationship not being bad at all, it leaves me unmotivated and not feeling like my life actually improved meaningfully. So I let the relationship die and go back to inceldom.
Relatable to anyone? How the fuck do you fix this.
I feel like my default life-state is utter subhuman. And self-improvement ascends me, but it costs me so much effort and grants me so little good emotions/feelings that I can't keep it up.
From incel to having a gf. From no money to making decent money. From no social circle to being part of a popular fraternity.
However what was always there was the fact that I didn't feel like my life was improving in any way and it didn't motivate me to keep it going and/or get an even better life for myself. I often just felt like a fraud, that I was about to be exposed. And also that I didn't belong with these people and that I didn't deserve a good life.
So it always ended up detoriorating after a while till life was back to being subhuman.
Easy example is also leanmaxxing: I get lean after months of dieting. Notice some benefits from the way I look and how people treat me. But it leaves me with little to no dopamine, no motivation, no reward. And eventually I end up getting fat again.
I get a gf after months of asking out girls, going on (failed) dates, etc. Despite the relationship not being bad at all, it leaves me unmotivated and not feeling like my life actually improved meaningfully. So I let the relationship die and go back to inceldom.
Relatable to anyone? How the fuck do you fix this.
I feel like my default life-state is utter subhuman. And self-improvement ascends me, but it costs me so much effort and grants me so little good emotions/feelings that I can't keep it up.
