You just answered your own question.
That's what I think. I have the fear of obsessing over perfectionism. I just hope that I don't want to start surgerymaxxing. Or that I reach 5 PSL and see no changes in my life, so I end up by wanting more (that's why I'll NT-maxx, too). I'm making everything to work, so I won't need any surgery to achieve the results I want.
and here we cope
diagnosed with autism? or self assesed?
Diagnosed. https://looksmax.org/threads/for-those-who-say-that-therapy-is-cope.273022/ (this kind of explains it all). I was diagnosed when I was 5, I think? I have some papers upstairs, in some boxes, but I don't wanna share them for obvious reasons (one of them is that they're written in spanish).
Most people say that 5 PSL is enough. And I don't want to go into surgerymaxxing.
cool, good.
That's one of my issues. I can mask my autism for some time, but then, I need to rest, because socialising is kind of energy-draining for me (though I'm cheking if I have sleep apnea because I've been always tired since I was a kid and since my chin is recessed). And, the good thing with my obsession is that, once I find a new thing, I just go cold turkey without any problem. My PSL, right now, is 4 or 4.5+ PSL. It depends on who rates (because, imo, beauty has some subjetivity within its objetivity). So getting to 5 PSL is possible (with low bodyfat). My fear is that going to 5 PSL won't change shit, and that I'll still need to NT maxx to get what I truly want (I'll NT maxx, of course, but I'll never be NT).
That's what I fear that's going to happen to me. But if 5 PSL is enough for my objetives, then, I'll be happy (and first, I must reach 5 PSL with low bodyfat).
My view, experience.
Thanks for your advice. My goal is not to end up with an attractive woman, but to make society to give me room for my faults, which would good. I will be left alone with no disruptions to my self-steem.
A lot of times, but I bet that they're NT or have something to bring to the table. Not being NT is a big flaw, no one wants to take care of you. I mean that people want to have a normal relationship. No one wants to be their partner's father or mother.
I don't understand this sentence.
NT is ironically the harshest pill to swallow for blackpillcels. I think NT isn't as talked about here because it actually requires people to go out of their comfort zone etc.
Yes. I don't care about slaying.
You can't change your brain. So, if you aren't NT, you will never be.
You are probably already too far gone if you're on this site, if you wanna be NT.
good idea.
I've never believed that confidence bullshit. You cannot grow a confidence with constant negative feedback about the same topics (looks and social skills, in my case). You can't also "fix" your bad personality, because, imo, your personality is the result of the feedback you've been receiving through your life, and if It's negative, it's more likely for your personality to be "bad". And no one is bluepilled. When people talk about ugly guys they expect them to be funny, charismatic, happy, outgoing, etc., but in fact, most ugly people are bitter because of how they've been treated through their life.
My goal is to fix my mental issues and to develop a confidence. With good looks, people will give me less negative feedback, which will lead me to have a better confidence.
I fear people, in general. I don't trust them and I feel that they judge me for being ugly and autistic. This is irrational, but it's goes into my mind.
Truth. That's why "just be confident bro" advice won't work in most cases. You can't expect a guy who has had minimum attention from girls his whole life to suddenly become confident. Confidence comes from mostly being validated.
when did this start? as a kid or beginning of puberty (like 12)?
Well, it's true that IRL life appeal is more important. But I want to achieve some better looks.
At 15. I was bullied due to my autism.
I did that,too (bluepill, ngl), until I realised that I was the only one getting called ugly by girls of my friend circle. The only one that was laughed at, etc.
My feedback has been negative, so I'm just looksmaxxing and NT maxxing to be alone. I don't like people.
high functioning aspie or autistic
Asperger.
there is some good logic to this, I agree decently.
Well, I wasn't bullied when I was a kid, thankfully.
don't share that stuff here. Some idiots on this forum, beyond believe. can't trust them with such level of private stuff. Unless you don't care about privacy, and have nothing to lose (like me). So I share whatever stuff I like, because i'm untoucheable, in the sense i don't care. because I don't have a boss to report to, and so on...
I wasn't gonna share them. XD. I don't want them to "expose" me.
Fake disease for high iq logical people who dont fall for bullshit NT platitudes.
probably one doesn't recall what happened from age 0 to 5. At least I don't. But self esteem is set in that growth pahse already, i read.
Well, it's not fake. My brain doesn't process the information the same way as "normal" people. I will never be NT. But I want to improve my looks to the point in which I don't have to fake so hard.
There are also a lot of people with depressive disorders in my mother's family. That kind of explains why I always was angry as a kid or sad.
I love Black Phillip. So sad, he had to die. I wished he was still around. RIP savage Patrice.
To go that next level a real life pimp, behavior and mindset. I know for sure, I can never be that level. Because, of a level of moral fagottery, empathy, and so on; that I know for sure i can't put on "off". Notr so I think I wanna put that part of me "off"; even if I could. I ain't changing that much for some b**. She gotta take me largely, as I wanna and decide to be, and if that turns her off, she has to go and will be dumped by me. Ain't not woman telling me to change mayor parts of me, I don't wanna change.
I can respect that.
