How to stop Sh???

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

I have always had suicidal thoughts since i was 9 because of bullying, skincolor (i was just tan) , mom said ‘’All that effort raising me went to waste‘’. and etc.... then i started hitting and choking myself.
Then when i was 13 i started using blades to cut myself (just cat scratches) to cope but i stopped i didnt like that i could do it immidietly.




recently i started using blade to cope i tried to stop but i cant its like an reflex

 

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

clown on me as much as you want i dont really care anymore

 

[justtrynalookgood]

I have always had suicidal thoughts since i was 9 because of bullying, skincolor (i was just tan) , mom said ‘’All that effort raising me went to waste‘’. and etc.... then i started hitting and choking myself.
Then when i was 13 i started using blades to cut myself (just cat scratches) to cope but i stopped i didnt like that i could do it immidietly.




recently i started using blade to cope i tried to stop but i cant its like an reflex

U should get help

 

[AleksandR12]

U should get help

i agree

 

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

U should get help

im scared i put like i have bad mental state in like a paper which the school doctorr needed i regret it

 

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

i agree

i dont have anyone who listen to me im embarrased

 

[Dio Brando]

If it’s a reflex by now it’s probably a habit.
It WILL take time to break but it definitely can be broken and improved on.
I’d say a daily log would be best even better if you talk to someone(I don’t mind, me even)
After a while once you can go a decent bit just don’t even think about it or log forget it exists entirely

 

[rya222]

i agree

we all do agree

 

[al nur media]

U should get help

 

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

If it’s a reflex by now it’s probably a habit.
It WILL take time to break but it definitely can be broken and improved on.
I’d say a daily log would be best even better if you talk to someone(I don’t mind, me even)
After a while once you can go a decent bit just don’t even think about it or log forget it exists entirely

where should i log it?

 

[rockstarr]

Hope ur okay man- if u need someone to talk to dm me

 

[Dio Brando]

where should i log it?

Notes app
A friend
DMs

 

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

Hope ur okay man- if u need someone to talk to dm me

ty

 

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

Notes app
A friend
DMs

thank you ill try it

 

[TheSadAlbanian]

 

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

i dont want to embarrass my family they hate me enoght probably

 

[TheSadAlbanian]

i dont want to embarrass my family they hate me enoght probably

ur just overthinking it, there is no embarrassment in seeking help

 

[rrrreeiiiiiwayanami]

ur just overthinking it, there is no embarrassment in seeking help

dont like getting help like that idk how to explain ill regret it probably or bc im lazy too much work