how to stop tweaking

[hax]

got left on read last time i posted about this.

Sometimes i just want to eat myself and rip out of my body, audio hurts my brain so i can't calm myself, it's too hot for me to get excited and my eyes burn so i usually rage spinning in my bed to stop myself from self harm. Even worse when i see my face i start losing control of my head and start shaking it, looking around super fast, it just look like I'm on life support. This is not satire btw i really need to know what i can take or if there's any methods to stop this from happening.

 

[vincentzygo]

I hear how much pain you're in, and I'm truly sorry you're experiencing this level of distress. These intense sensory overload experiences, physical agitation, self-harm urges, and loss of control are serious and require professional medical and psychological support. You don't have to live like this, and help is available.

This is not something you should try to manage alone with substances or unverified methods. Here's what you need to know and do:

1. Immediate Safety & Crisis Support:
   • If you feel you might act on urges to self-harm right now: Please reach out immediately:
     • 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (US): Call or text 988
     • Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741
     • Go to your nearest Emergency Room.
   • Harm Reduction (for the rage/spinning): While spinning seems to prevent worse harm in the moment, it's physically taxing and potentially dangerous. If possible, try redirecting that energy onto a safer surface (thick mat, carpet) or into a different intense sensory input: hold ice cubes tightly, snap a rubber band on your wrist (less harmful than other options), or use a weighted blanket (if heat allows) for deep pressure.
2. Urgent Need for Professional Diagnosis:
   • What you describe sounds like severe sensory processing issues combined with intense emotional dysregulation and possibly neurological or psychiatric components. Potential underlying conditions could include (but are not limited to):
     • Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD): Extreme sensory sensitivities (sound, light, heat, interoception - sensing your own body), meltdowns/shutdowns, difficulty regulating emotions are common.
     • Severe Anxiety Disorders or OCD: Intrusive thoughts, overwhelming physical sensations of anxiety, compulsive behaviors (like the head shaking/looking).
     • Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD): Can exist alone or alongside other conditions.
     • Dissociative Disorders: Feeling detached from your body or self.
     • Neurological Conditions: Certain seizure disorders or movement disorders can manifest in unusual ways.
     • Trauma-Related Disorders: Past trauma can profoundly affect sensory processing and bodily awareness.
   • You absolutely need a comprehensive evaluation by professionals: This typically involves:
     • Your Primary Care Doctor (First Step): Rule out medical causes (e.g., thyroid issues, severe vitamin deficiencies, neurological problems) and get referrals.
     • Psychiatrist: For diagnosis of psychiatric conditions and discussion of appropriate medication if needed. Do NOT self-medicate. Tell them exactly what you told me.
     • Psychologist or Neuropsychological Evaluator: For in-depth assessment of autism, sensory processing, anxiety, trauma, etc.
     • Occupational Therapist (OT): Especially one specializing in sensory integration, to develop coping strategies for sensory overload.
3. Potential Strategies & Treatments (Must be Guided by Professionals):
   • Sensory Regulation Techniques (Work with an OT):
     • Auditory: High-fidelity earplugs (like Loop), noise-cancelling headphones, white noise/brown noise machines, calming music playlists.
     • Visual: Blue-light blocking glasses, dimming lights, blackout curtains, avoiding mirrors during vulnerable times, using hats or hoods to reduce peripheral vision.
     • Thermoregulation: Cooling vests/bandanas, cold showers/baths (if tolerable), fans, breathable fabrics (cotton/linen), staying hydrated.
     • Proprioceptive/Deep Pressure: Weighted blankets (cooling versions exist), compression clothing, deep hugs (if consensual), wall pushes, carrying heavy objects.
     • Interoception (Body Awareness): Grounding exercises (e.g., progressive muscle relaxation - if tolerable), mindfulness practices adapted for sensory sensitivity (start very short).
   • Therapeutic Approaches:
     • Sensory Integration Therapy (OT): The core therapy for SPD.
     • Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT): Specifically designed for emotion regulation, distress tolerance, and reducing self-harm urges. Highly recommended.
     • Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT): Helps manage overwhelming thoughts and feelings.
     • Trauma-Informed Therapy (if applicable): Such as EMDR or somatic experiencing.
     • Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT): Can be adapted for anxiety and specific triggers.
   • Medication (Only prescribed and monitored by a Psychiatrist):
     • There is no single "pill for this," but medication might help manage specific symptoms like overwhelming anxiety, intrusive thoughts, mood instability, or sensory hypersensitivity underlying your experience. This requires careful diagnosis and monitoring. Do not try to self-medicate.
4. Key Actions You Can Take Now:
   • Reach out to your doctor TODAY. Describe your symptoms exactly as you did here. Emphasize the severity and impact on your safety.
   • Start a Symptom Journal: Track what happens before, during, and after these episodes. Note triggers (sounds, heat, seeing face, time of day, stress level, hunger, sleep), sensations, thoughts, urges, and what you did. This is crucial info for professionals.
   • Identify Small Safe Spaces: Where can you go that's cool, dark, and quiet when you feel overload building? Prepare it.
   • Communicate (If Possible): If you have trusted people, tell them you experience severe sensory overload and distress, and what (if anything) they can do to help (e.g., give space, lower lights/sound, not touch you).

This is not your fault. What you're experiencing is real and intensely distressing, but it can be understood and managed with the right professional help. The path involves getting the correct diagnosis first, then building a tailored treatment plan involving therapy, sensory strategies, and potentially medication. Please prioritize contacting your doctor or a crisis line immediately. You deserve relief and support.

 

[quodia]

How does your brain hurt? Is the rage spinning and looking around uncontrollable?

Id say talk to someone close that you trust about this outside of an internet forum.
Ask to see for a psych eval to make sure you're okay. It doesn't mean your crazy. We all have our problems its part of what make us human.

They'll probably give you some treatments that will help.

 

[hax]

How does your brain hurt? Is the rage spinning and looking around uncontrollable?

Id say talk to someone close that you trust about this outside of an internet forum.
Ask to see for a psych eval to make sure you're okay. It doesn't mean your crazy. We all have our problems its part of what make us human.

They'll probably give you some treatments that will help.

It just feels like my skull wants to escape my skin desperately for like 10 seconds, can't reach out to my parents but I have a psy appointment soon, wishing he can help out.

 

[Dastan]

It just feels like my skull wants to escape my skin desperately for like 10 seconds, can't reach out to my parents but I have a psy appointment soon, wishing he can help out.

is it related to you hating how you look?

 

[quodia]

It just feels like my skull wants to escape my skin desperately for like 10 seconds, can't reach out to my parents but I have a psy appointment soon, wishing he can help out.

I know how that feels. I have brain static too. Its part of OCD. Just chill in the mean time bro. He'll help.

Remember, youre in control.

 

[Dastan]

I know how that feels. I have brain static too. Its part of OCD. Just chill in the mean time bro. He'll help.

Remember, youre in control.

do you have pure ocd as well?

 

[hax]

is it related to you hating how you look?

I feel like it is, most of the time i just end up smashing my face, i feel like i had OCD symptoms back in the day but i never actually got checked for it.

 

[wifi]

ashwagandha

 

[Dastan]

I feel like it is, most of the time i just end up smashing my face, i feel like i had OCD symptoms back in the day but i never actually got checked for it.

then relax - looks dont actually matter. its either a hobby and you enjoy it (looksmaxing) or it's a paranoia - it's not real, just let it go.

your face, height and whatever are ultimately just your avatar, which has no value in itself, ngl it can bring you pleasure or pain, in terms of validation or easy sex (or lack of) which are physical sensations, in some way the same as doing drugs, t's an illusion / trick your body plays to motivate you do your evolutionary mission, it's not that valuable to suffer about, love or hate yourself. Deep down, you know it's actually true, remember people who you love and change their appearance you will still love them.

Your true value is your existence and individual conscious experience, and it just is, no one can take it from you or change it.

 

[robert3]

u probably got autism brodie
xanax will fixn the panic attacks and maybye help u socialize but u will get addicted
weigh the pros and cons and determine if xanny bars willl improve or decrease your quality of life

 

[Seong Gi-Hun]

I hear how much pain you're in, and I'm truly sorry you're experiencing this level of distress. These intense sensory overload experiences, physical agitation, self-harm urges, and loss of control are serious and require professional medical and psychological support. You don't have to live like this, and help is available.

This is not something you should try to manage alone with substances or unverified methods. Here's what you need to know and do:

1. Immediate Safety & Crisis Support:
   • If you feel you might act on urges to self-harm right now:Please reach out immediately:
     • 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (US): Call or text 988
     • Crisis Text Line: Text HOME to 741741
     • Go to your nearest Emergency Room.
   • Harm Reduction (for the rage/spinning): While spinning seems to prevent worse harm in the moment, it's physically taxing and potentially dangerous. If possible, try redirecting that energy onto a safer surface (thick mat, carpet) or into a different intense sensory input: hold ice cubes tightly, snap a rubber band on your wrist (less harmful than other options), or use a weighted blanket (if heat allows) for deep pressure.
2. Urgent Need for Professional Diagnosis:
   • What you describe sounds like severe sensory processing issues combined with intense emotional dysregulation and possibly neurological or psychiatric components.Potential underlying conditions could include (but are not limited to):
     • Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD): Extreme sensory sensitivities (sound, light, heat, interoception - sensing your own body), meltdowns/shutdowns, difficulty regulating emotions are common.
     • Severe Anxiety Disorders or OCD: Intrusive thoughts, overwhelming physical sensations of anxiety, compulsive behaviors (like the head shaking/looking).
     • Sensory Processing Disorder (SPD): Can exist alone or alongside other conditions.
     • Dissociative Disorders: Feeling detached from your body or self.
     • Neurological Conditions: Certain seizure disorders or movement disorders can manifest in unusual ways.
     • Trauma-Related Disorders: Past trauma can profoundly affect sensory processing and bodily awareness.
   • You absolutely need a comprehensive evaluation by professionals:This typically involves:
     • Your Primary Care Doctor (First Step): Rule out medical causes (e.g., thyroid issues, severe vitamin deficiencies, neurological problems) and get referrals.
     • Psychiatrist: For diagnosis of psychiatric conditions and discussion of appropriate medication if needed. Do NOT self-medicate. Tell them exactly what you told me.
     • Psychologist or Neuropsychological Evaluator: For in-depth assessment of autism, sensory processing, anxiety, trauma, etc.
     • Occupational Therapist (OT): Especially one specializing in sensory integration, to develop coping strategies for sensory overload.
3. Potential Strategies & Treatments (Must be Guided by Professionals):
   • Sensory Regulation Techniques (Work with an OT):
     • Auditory: High-fidelity earplugs (like Loop), noise-cancelling headphones, white noise/brown noise machines, calming music playlists.
     • Visual: Blue-light blocking glasses, dimming lights, blackout curtains, avoiding mirrors during vulnerable times, using hats or hoods to reduce peripheral vision.
     • Thermoregulation: Cooling vests/bandanas, cold showers/baths (if tolerable), fans, breathable fabrics (cotton/linen), staying hydrated.
     • Proprioceptive/Deep Pressure: Weighted blankets (cooling versions exist), compression clothing, deep hugs (if consensual), wall pushes, carrying heavy objects.
     • Interoception (Body Awareness): Grounding exercises (e.g., progressive muscle relaxation - if tolerable), mindfulness practices adapted for sensory sensitivity (start very short).
   • Therapeutic Approaches:
     • Sensory Integration Therapy (OT): The core therapy for SPD.
     • Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT): Specifically designed for emotion regulation, distress tolerance, and reducing self-harm urges. Highly recommended.
     • Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT): Helps manage overwhelming thoughts and feelings.
     • Trauma-Informed Therapy (if applicable): Such as EMDR or somatic experiencing.
     • Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT): Can be adapted for anxiety and specific triggers.
   • Medication (Only prescribed and monitored by a Psychiatrist):
     • There is no single "pill for this," but medication might help manage specific symptoms like overwhelming anxiety, intrusive thoughts, mood instability, or sensory hypersensitivity underlying your experience. This requires careful diagnosis and monitoring. Do not try to self-medicate.
4. Key Actions You Can Take Now:
   • Reach out to your doctor TODAY. Describe your symptoms exactly as you did here. Emphasize the severity and impact on your safety.
   • Start a Symptom Journal: Track what happens before, during, and after these episodes. Note triggers (sounds, heat, seeing face, time of day, stress level, hunger, sleep), sensations, thoughts, urges, and what you did. This is crucial info for professionals.
   • Identify Small Safe Spaces: Where can you go that's cool, dark, and quiet when you feel overload building? Prepare it.
   • Communicate (If Possible): If you have trusted people, tell them you experience severe sensory overload and distress, and what (if anything) they can do to help (e.g., give space, lower lights/sound, not touch you).

This is not your fault. What you're experiencing is real and intensely distressing, but it can be understood and managed with the right professional help. The path involves getting the correct diagnosis first, then building a tailored treatment plan involving therapy, sensory strategies, and potentially medication. Please prioritize contacting your doctor or a crisis line immediately. You deserve relief and support.

Fuck out of here with chatgpt