MoggerGaston
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I ghosted the htb i slayed over a month ago due to personal issues: Frauding some slayer lifestyle, pretending like I don't play videogames, frauding my age, opinions, everything. It just seems like it ain't worth it.
I don't generally feel comfortable around people IRL due to all the frauding required to seem NT.
But especially around women I feel like it's a job; I am not enjoying myself. Everything is a performance, except I am not even getting paid.
Especially since I am also addicted to drugs now and get high every day. I'd have to hide that too.
Anyways especially when I am high on drugs, faking NT is easy asf. U just feel good about everything and don't experience stress anymore. So I get the urge to message her every once in a while, but feel like it would be too brutal to just randomly message a girl I ghosted 1 month ago lmao. So I don't.
Tbh I was on ketamine aswell on the date (a light dose only) and we did other drugs together later on. So just JFL at all of this anyways.
Also used cialis aswell. I carry it with me on dates and when the chance of sex goes above 70%, I take half a pill.
Anyways she triple-texted me, asking me why I ghosted her, after 1 month of silence.
Unironically not sure whether it would be a positive or negative to my life to date her and frauding NT.
Also in the long run I would have to make a fake-ID that shows me as 3 years younger, if we ever go on holidays etc and she sees my ID.
Honestly JFL at my mentally ill lifestyle. Over even if you ascend.
I don't generally feel comfortable around people IRL due to all the frauding required to seem NT.
But especially around women I feel like it's a job; I am not enjoying myself. Everything is a performance, except I am not even getting paid.
Especially since I am also addicted to drugs now and get high every day. I'd have to hide that too.
Anyways especially when I am high on drugs, faking NT is easy asf. U just feel good about everything and don't experience stress anymore. So I get the urge to message her every once in a while, but feel like it would be too brutal to just randomly message a girl I ghosted 1 month ago lmao. So I don't.
Tbh I was on ketamine aswell on the date (a light dose only) and we did other drugs together later on. So just JFL at all of this anyways.
Also used cialis aswell. I carry it with me on dates and when the chance of sex goes above 70%, I take half a pill.
Anyways she triple-texted me, asking me why I ghosted her, after 1 month of silence.
Unironically not sure whether it would be a positive or negative to my life to date her and frauding NT.
Also in the long run I would have to make a fake-ID that shows me as 3 years younger, if we ever go on holidays etc and she sees my ID.
Honestly JFL at my mentally ill lifestyle. Over even if you ascend.