Areuready
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While talking shit on the normies i saw on social media I remembered my before life. can anyone help interpret what went wrong? I'm ultimately black pilled because of my ex girlfriend I had and i saw the men she dated after me were all pretty boy maxxed.
But even after her there were others. For example, I worked at a well known amusement park as an actor and the park provided room and board and would also employee college students from all over the world. I met an Asian girl there and her and I went to a local night club and danced, she invited me back to her place (there was no drinking) we sat on her bed and talked until her roommate came back and then she kicked me out after another 30 minutes of chatting. We ended up meeting the next day before she left hung out a bit and then she texted me "I wanted to kiss you but you seemed not interested so i was scared" Just completely randomly.
I started being invited to college parties a few months later. I would talk to anyone and everyone and they would chat me up and be cool with me and not push me away or seem annoyed, eye contact comfortable body language. One of these parties i met this white guy with platinum blonde hair named Joi,(Def a stacy-lite) she was 5'5 and slim and feminine (euro style weight for a woman) she was close to me most of the night and we started sharing drinks, we talked about everything and then she randomly asked me "So are you a tit or an ass guy?", we talked a bit more and then she left with her female friend and said bye to me before she left.
The next party i didn't go to but my friend specifically and randomly told me that there was some blonde haired girl named Joi asking if i would be there. (after the party was done) and he wanted to know what that was about. I never saw her again obviously.
Another party i went to was a cabin party. I ended up sneaking away with this girl in the woods in the middle of nowhere, we started drinking and talking about world history and hitler. At the end of the night I let her share my bed because she got locked out of her cabin. And all of that was only when i was 17-22.
My most recent encounters was a pre-covid hook up and some tinder matches that are so dry to talk to you would swear they were a thanksgiving turkey.
Did bluelight and pc gaming and internet culture and food ruin my life? Should i have just taken the redpill rather than the black??
What happened? Was it the weight gain? Was it the bitterness and locking myself in my house for months at a time and people gave up on me? I don't get invited out anymore at all. People don't add me on facebook after they meet me (besides a handful of times recently) I have to be the one making plans, to ask for social media.
Not to mention the fact that previously in middle/high school despite being a jestermaxxing greasy haired lunatic. I was an "early bloomer" I had my first kiss at 11 and my first girlfriend was in 7th grade when I was cornered and approached by a group of girls. I was 16 when i lost my virginity which put me on par for "most U.S men" and I had also dated 4 different girls by the time I was finishing high school. Bro what happened? Age? weight? wtf. It literally is OVER. because it did begin at one point.
But even after her there were others. For example, I worked at a well known amusement park as an actor and the park provided room and board and would also employee college students from all over the world. I met an Asian girl there and her and I went to a local night club and danced, she invited me back to her place (there was no drinking) we sat on her bed and talked until her roommate came back and then she kicked me out after another 30 minutes of chatting. We ended up meeting the next day before she left hung out a bit and then she texted me "I wanted to kiss you but you seemed not interested so i was scared" Just completely randomly.
I started being invited to college parties a few months later. I would talk to anyone and everyone and they would chat me up and be cool with me and not push me away or seem annoyed, eye contact comfortable body language. One of these parties i met this white guy with platinum blonde hair named Joi,(Def a stacy-lite) she was 5'5 and slim and feminine (euro style weight for a woman) she was close to me most of the night and we started sharing drinks, we talked about everything and then she randomly asked me "So are you a tit or an ass guy?", we talked a bit more and then she left with her female friend and said bye to me before she left.
The next party i didn't go to but my friend specifically and randomly told me that there was some blonde haired girl named Joi asking if i would be there. (after the party was done) and he wanted to know what that was about. I never saw her again obviously.
Another party i went to was a cabin party. I ended up sneaking away with this girl in the woods in the middle of nowhere, we started drinking and talking about world history and hitler. At the end of the night I let her share my bed because she got locked out of her cabin. And all of that was only when i was 17-22.
My most recent encounters was a pre-covid hook up and some tinder matches that are so dry to talk to you would swear they were a thanksgiving turkey.
Did bluelight and pc gaming and internet culture and food ruin my life? Should i have just taken the redpill rather than the black??
What happened? Was it the weight gain? Was it the bitterness and locking myself in my house for months at a time and people gave up on me? I don't get invited out anymore at all. People don't add me on facebook after they meet me (besides a handful of times recently) I have to be the one making plans, to ask for social media.
Not to mention the fact that previously in middle/high school despite being a jestermaxxing greasy haired lunatic. I was an "early bloomer" I had my first kiss at 11 and my first girlfriend was in 7th grade when I was cornered and approached by a group of girls. I was 16 when i lost my virginity which put me on par for "most U.S men" and I had also dated 4 different girls by the time I was finishing high school. Bro what happened? Age? weight? wtf. It literally is OVER. because it did begin at one point.