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Jarlinson
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I never thought I’d end up documenting this here, but I have no one else to vent to. It is what it is: I’m a loser. 20 years old, no girlfriend, and still a virgin. I know some might think I’m some kind of monster, but I’m actually decent looking. In my country, I easily outclass the average guy because genetics here are pretty bad.
The real problem is my brain. I’m a total Mentalcel. I’m neurodivergent, probably autistic, and my social skills are non-existent. Interacting with women gives me genuine panic; they feel like a different species to me.
The History of Wasted Chances:
I’ve been a loner since I was a kid. During high school, when hormones are flying, I had girls literally approaching me, and I blew every single chance because of my insecurity.
• 10th Grade: A girl literally sat on my lap and started asking me about my life. I got so nervous I couldn't even talk. She realized immediately I was a shy, insecure mess and never spoke to me again.
• The Stalker: Another girl was literally obsessed with my face and used to follow me around. I didn't even get why back then.
• The "Phone" Incident: A girl in my class asked for my number. I was so panicked that I told her I didn't have a phone—only a tablet for gaming. Absolute fail.
University and Current Situation:
In Uni, girls don't chase you anymore, they just give you signals. I’ve had plenty of them, but I ignore or reject them. Not because they aren't hot, but because I’m obsessed with my own flaws. I spend hours overthinking if my voice sounds weird or if my body language is off.
• Family Situation: My parents and relatives think I’m gay because I have a "pretty boy" face, a skinny body, and zero history with girls.
• My Standards: A year ago, a girl confessed to me and I rejected her. Another girl was obsessed with me because I "look Asian," but I found out she wasn't a virgin anymore. Next. I don’t care if she looks like a model; if she’s already been with someone else, she’s contaminated to me. I'm not settling for someone's leftovers.
The 2026 Goal:
I’m tired of this. I know more about grooming and looksmaxxing than most girls do. I’ve reached my limit physically, but I’m still a ghost socially.
My goal for next year is simple:
1. Social practice: I’m going to talk to any girl, I don't care if they are "sub5" or not. I just need to practice talking to these strange beings.
2. Lose my virginity: This is my main priority. I want a high-quality girl, but at this point, a win is a win.
2026 has to be the year I finally get at least one kiss. I’ve maxed out my looks as much as I could; now I have to force myself to act. Wish me luck.
The real problem is my brain. I’m a total Mentalcel. I’m neurodivergent, probably autistic, and my social skills are non-existent. Interacting with women gives me genuine panic; they feel like a different species to me.
The History of Wasted Chances:
I’ve been a loner since I was a kid. During high school, when hormones are flying, I had girls literally approaching me, and I blew every single chance because of my insecurity.
• 10th Grade: A girl literally sat on my lap and started asking me about my life. I got so nervous I couldn't even talk. She realized immediately I was a shy, insecure mess and never spoke to me again.
• The Stalker: Another girl was literally obsessed with my face and used to follow me around. I didn't even get why back then.
• The "Phone" Incident: A girl in my class asked for my number. I was so panicked that I told her I didn't have a phone—only a tablet for gaming. Absolute fail.
University and Current Situation:
In Uni, girls don't chase you anymore, they just give you signals. I’ve had plenty of them, but I ignore or reject them. Not because they aren't hot, but because I’m obsessed with my own flaws. I spend hours overthinking if my voice sounds weird or if my body language is off.
• Family Situation: My parents and relatives think I’m gay because I have a "pretty boy" face, a skinny body, and zero history with girls.
• My Standards: A year ago, a girl confessed to me and I rejected her. Another girl was obsessed with me because I "look Asian," but I found out she wasn't a virgin anymore. Next. I don’t care if she looks like a model; if she’s already been with someone else, she’s contaminated to me. I'm not settling for someone's leftovers.
The 2026 Goal:
I’m tired of this. I know more about grooming and looksmaxxing than most girls do. I’ve reached my limit physically, but I’m still a ghost socially.
My goal for next year is simple:
1. Social practice: I’m going to talk to any girl, I don't care if they are "sub5" or not. I just need to practice talking to these strange beings.
2. Lose my virginity: This is my main priority. I want a high-quality girl, but at this point, a win is a win.
2026 has to be the year I finally get at least one kiss. I’ve maxed out my looks as much as I could; now I have to force myself to act. Wish me luck.

, who does this guy think he is? I'd rather literally kiss a disabled girl 

