I am a deranged autist

[MoggerGaston]

Fucking over for me tbh.

 

[Deleted member 32410]

I think I mask so much now that I’ve been masking to myself for years. I hide it from myself type shit. I convince myself I’m NT when I’m def not

 

[Deleted member 16275]

 

[MoggerGaston]

Do you randomly feel the need to scream random words at times?

I’ll be chillin in the house but feel this deep urge to yell like JOHNNNYYY some times.

Only do it when I’m alone. I think this is what told me I’m autistic. Also when I’m talking to a therapist abt neurodivergence I kind to start stop masking cuz I’m comfy and I become self aware of my autistic tendencies like I start to get distracted and act retarded.

I think I mask so much now that I’ve been masking to myself for years. I hide it from myself type shit

Similar thing here.

I suppress myself non-stop. I don't even know who I am.

 

[Deleted member 32410]

Similar thing here.

I suppress myself non-stop. I don't even know who I am.

I had to delete cuz It’s so embarrassing for me. I get terrible cognitive dissonance by making myself face this truth. I’m hiding from myself it’s so over. I am not put together at all tbh

 

[MoggerGaston]

I had to delete cuz It’s so embarrassing for me. I get terrible cognitive dissonance by making myself face this truth. I’m hiding from myself it’s so over. I am not put together at all tbh

The worst is when I finally get comfortable and share some of my inner thoughts/feelings, it's always shut down and rejected.

It's why I prefer being alone nowadays.

 

[horizontallytall]

I am living alone for past 2 years and i feel great, i talk

The worst is when I finally get comfortable and share some of my inner thoughts/feelings, it's always shut down and rejected.

It's why I prefer being alone nowadays.

And play with kids sometimes, they always bring the positive feelings in ur mind