I am a ghost (low effort vent)

[wrestle.cel]

This is a shitty vent post feel free to dnr lel
i just wanted to rant a bit
My first time venting on here so ill prolly get troll replies its wtv

my life has essentially come to a standstill, there is no pharma to be bought or drugs to indulge in that will change this
No amounts of therapy or social interaction either
I am diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder, general anxiety disorder, autism, brief psychotic disorder, and i am clinically high risk for schizophrenia and paranoia
(I am also unmedicated)

I feel so incredibly detached from the world its like I am a ghost watching everyone pass by, I feel like im not even in control

Hell I havent talked to a girl probably since early 2026 or even laye 2025

School is starting up again soon and I dont know how I am going to manage, I dont have any irl friends, I dont have any girls, theres nothing physically special about me, I have no money

Ive reached a point where there is nothing left to do or to gain from even being alive, ive realized that my life is that of an extra in a movie

The best i can really do is try to get money and hopefully improve my looks with pharmacology and expand my mind through reading and psychedelic drugs. but even then what will I gain?

Im khhv and underdeveloped facially, ive been in the incel community for years, far younger than I shouldve been.

Some people were just born at the finish line, or thrown into a pit of crocodiles.

If you read this, thanks lol. I just wanted to put this out there somewhere

 

[miserycel]

work on yourself, that's all any of us can do

suicide is existential failure

you're a winner if you get nerfed this bad and still made it to the finish line

 

[wrestle.cel]

work on yourself, that's all any of us can do

suicide is existential failure

you're a winner if you get nerfed this bad and still made it to the finish line

Thanks for the kind words bro

Ive pushed myself for a while and eventually I must come to terms with the fact that no matter the course of action I take, I will be the butt of the cosmic joke

 

[sasha108]

This is a shitty vent post feel free to dnr lel
i just wanted to rant a bit
My first time venting on here so ill prolly get troll replies its wtv

my life has essentially come to a standstill, there is no pharma to be bought or drugs to indulge in that will change this
No amounts of therapy or social interaction either
I am diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder, general anxiety disorder, autism, brief psychotic disorder, and i am clinically high risk for schizophrenia and paranoia
(I am also unmedicated)

I feel so incredibly detached from the world its like I am a ghost watching everyone pass by, I feel like im not even in control

Hell I havent talked to a girl probably since early 2026 or even laye 2025

School is starting up again soon and I dont know how I am going to manage, I dont have any irl friends, I dont have any girls, theres nothing physically special about me, I have no money

Ive reached a point where there is nothing left to do or to gain from even being alive, ive realized that my life is that of an extra in a movie

The best i can really do is try to get money and hopefully improve my looks with pharmacology and expand my mind through reading and psychedelic drugs. but even then what will I gain?

Im khhv and underdeveloped facially, ive been in the incel community for years, far younger than I shouldve been.

Some people were just born at the finish line, or thrown into a pit of crocodiles.

If you read this, thanks lol. I just wanted to put this out there somewhere

Fucking hell
How old are you?
And I think pharma can help to build a great body and fix some hormones

 

[wrestle.cel]

How old are you?

I am 17, ik im young technically but im behind my peers in terms of everything

If its over for you, you typically realize by a young young age like 10 or 11

And I think pharma can help to build a great body and fix some hormones

I have limited access but beleive me I tried and will continue to try, at the end of the day theres only so much I can do

 

[wrestle.cel]

Bump

 

[jester1234]

This is a shitty vent post feel free to dnr lel
i just wanted to rant a bit
My first time venting on here so ill prolly get troll replies its wtv

my life has essentially come to a standstill, there is no pharma to be bought or drugs to indulge in that will change this
No amounts of therapy or social interaction either
I am diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder, general anxiety disorder, autism, brief psychotic disorder, and i am clinically high risk for schizophrenia and paranoia
(I am also unmedicated)

I feel so incredibly detached from the world its like I am a ghost watching everyone pass by, I feel like im not even in control

Hell I havent talked to a girl probably since early 2026 or even laye 2025

School is starting up again soon and I dont know how I am going to manage, I dont have any irl friends, I dont have any girls, theres nothing physically special about me, I have no money

Ive reached a point where there is nothing left to do or to gain from even being alive, ive realized that my life is that of an extra in a movie

The best i can really do is try to get money and hopefully improve my looks with pharmacology and expand my mind through reading and psychedelic drugs. but even then what will I gain?

Im khhv and underdeveloped facially, ive been in the incel community for years, far younger than I shouldve been.

Some people were just born at the finish line, or thrown into a pit of crocodiles.

If you read this, thanks lol. I just wanted to put this out there somewhere

I feel the same as you man, I’m planning to commit after high school, no guarantees tho haha

 

[wrestle.cel]

I feel the same as you man, I’m planning to commit after high school, no guarantees tho haha

I dont really care to talk about any plans of suicide publicly, this forum has a bad rep for attention seekers

But i will say I dont see any gain from being alive or dead

I truly think I am already dead anyways

 

[jester1234]

I dont really care to talk about any plans of suicide publicly, this forum has a bad rep for attention seekers

But i will say I dont see any gain from being alive or dead

I truly think I am already dead anyways

Yeah, I should prolly stop before I get warned

 

[wrestle.cel]

Yeah, I should prolly stop before I get warned

Ypu probably wont be warned but I just think its corny to talk about it too much
If you really must confess about suicidal ideations then tell close friends, this forum is full of dickheads

 

[jester1234]

Ypu probably wont be warned but I just think its corny to talk about it too much
If you really must confess about suicidal ideations then tell close friends, this forum is full of dickheads

I have no close friends that’s why I’m on here

 

[wrestle.cel]

I have no close friends that’s why I’m on here

Real shit man