I am a pathetic incel

[iblamebonemass]

I grew up with my step father physically and psychologically abusing me and stalking/harassing my family from age 3-15. I overdosed on benzodiazepines with alcohol and got hospitalized at 13 years old. I have never truly felt loved. All my life I have only been ignored or mocked by foids for being ugly and ND.

I have done gymmaxxing, bonesmashing, fat dissolvers, growth hormone, drugs, starvemaxxing and tried to lower inhibition with selank and finally I got one girls attention and she told me she loved me but she just used me as a rebound or toy and just left me still being a virgin and more miserable than before.

That was last year and I have now been chasing the same girl for a year now because she’s the only person that made me feel like someone could love me. During this 1 year period she has had 2 boyfriends who she let slay and I’m a fucking cuckcel waiting and just taking it.

Recently she confessed that she has feelings for me and felt the same about me but I know that no one could have genuine feelings for somebody like me. I have bought her flowers, heels, a purse, I have taken her on dates and now bought a ring because she said she wanted one for when I ask her to be my girlfriend. And now that we have a possibility to become something, she says that she wants to ”wait till marriage” before having sex while she’s not even a virgin. All this time. For nothing.

To top it all off, a friend that I used to have that is a Nazi walked up to her in school and talked a bunch of shit about me and asked ”are you his girlfriend, are yall together?” infront of multiple people, which she answered ”No we’re not together” and then he clowns me in a groupchat saying that ”she doesn’t want to be together till she get that ring”

So fucking brutal it’s over for my incel life.

 

[Need212]

Nigga u bought a bitch Heels, bags and flowers. Took her on dates, and got a ring all before she showed any interest in you romantically? You should’ve cut her off after like 3 interactions of being affectionate towards her and the feeling not being reciprocated. All that flattery means nothing if she doesn’t wanna fuck you. Calling your friend a nazi likes it’s some sort of insult is probably contributing to why your cucked

 

[iblamebonemass]

Nigga u bought a bitch Heels, bags and flowers. Took her on dates, and got a ring all before she showed any interest in you romantically? You should’ve cut her off after like 3 interactions of being affectionate towards her and the feeling not being reciprocated. All that flattery means nothing if she doesn’t wanna fuck you. Calling your friend a nazi likes it’s some sort of insult is probably contributing to why your cucked

I didn’t call him a nazi as an insult, I said that because he’s an actual nazi that is part of a criminal nazi group

 

[iblamebonemass]

Nigga u bought a bitch Heels, bags and flowers. Took her on dates, and got a ring all before she showed any interest in you romantically?

I am neurodivergent so I am not very good at reading hints, but she said she loved me, that she would want something serious in the future, that’s why I bought the ring, the problem is that it took a year to get to that place and that I can’t tell if I’m just being used

 

[Need212]

I am neurodivergent so I am not very good at reading hints, but she said she loved me, that she would want something serious in the future, that’s why I bought the ring, the problem is that it took a year to get to that place and that I can’t tell if I’m just being used

Even so, what value do you provide to her that the dudes she fucked didn’t? Maybe she sees you as a safe option or is trying to use you like you said, i doubt she has love for you more than platonically. Do you really want to pursue and give energy towards a woman like that? If so then go cuckmaxx more power to you but personally if a girl knows i like her yet still goes and sleeps with other men over the course of a year im good.

 

[turkcelfatcel]

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