
DK_
Self diagnosed subhuman
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This is my first post on the forum, i just couldn’t not talk about it.
I am absolutely fucking terrified of growing up , i am 17 now almost a legal adult which is absolutely terrifying. I feel like every good or enjoyable aspect of my life will just be gone .
I am moving schools on my last year so i will see my friends alot alot less and will have to socialize with completely new people who i don’t know their personalities their social status in their environment which is hell for an nd.
And i feel like all the attention that i have gotten because of things related to my age will just be normal or not very mind blowing or wtvr like my intelligence, height or looks aren’t related to my “ young age” i wont be an extremely smart 17 year old or 6’5 at 15 or wtvr.
I will just be oh look he's tall or he’s kinda smart and not he's very tall for his age or he’s very smart for his age.
I will just be another average fish and that terrifies me.
And the idea of somewhat leaving everything and everyone I’ve built a relationship with people, teachers, friends and even ex gfs or ppl that had past crushes on me will all go away since im going to an all guys school.
And don’t get me started on college and having to do all of the socializing again the year after i feel like my life is already over.
The age-pill is always the hardest to swallow.
Sorry for the long rant everyone.
I am absolutely fucking terrified of growing up , i am 17 now almost a legal adult which is absolutely terrifying. I feel like every good or enjoyable aspect of my life will just be gone .
I am moving schools on my last year so i will see my friends alot alot less and will have to socialize with completely new people who i don’t know their personalities their social status in their environment which is hell for an nd.
And i feel like all the attention that i have gotten because of things related to my age will just be normal or not very mind blowing or wtvr like my intelligence, height or looks aren’t related to my “ young age” i wont be an extremely smart 17 year old or 6’5 at 15 or wtvr.
I will just be oh look he's tall or he’s kinda smart and not he's very tall for his age or he’s very smart for his age.
I will just be another average fish and that terrifies me.
And the idea of somewhat leaving everything and everyone I’ve built a relationship with people, teachers, friends and even ex gfs or ppl that had past crushes on me will all go away since im going to an all guys school.
And don’t get me started on college and having to do all of the socializing again the year after i feel like my life is already over.
The age-pill is always the hardest to swallow.
Sorry for the long rant everyone.