I am against the mainstream

[Deleted member 21467]

Around 2019, I had a period in my life where I felt so ashamed of myself, I felt so outcasted and alone. I had a Caucasian accent unlike most blacks, and I was always into electronics. One day, I decided that in order to survive I needed to ”fit in”, keep in mind I was 13 at the time thinking this way. I started speaking a different way, I started asking my mother for Jordans, everything.

Over the course of 2020 - 2021, I found myself becoming a completely different version of myself, and guess what, I never got the respect, I was still a low ranking member on the social hierarchy.

All the jestermaxxing shit I did, listening to rap music even though I didn’t like it before, having mainstream hairstyles like waves, etc.

I realized a few months ago that all this shit is stupid, why am I taking part in all of these hedonistic activities only to still feel empty inside? I was never myself, and I’m only now realizing this.

All my efforts of trying to fit in were futile, now that this stage of my life is almost over with, it’s time to fulfill my destiny, of creating my own distinct culture.

And you all should too. Don’t say that you’re against the mainstream or you’re different, if you’re actually doing things that are from the mainstream.

I’m talking about creating your own culture, creating your own story, having your own morals. The society you so seek to be apart of, everyone’s done it, why be like everyone else? I don’t understand.

I know people here want to be their own distinct character, if that weren’t the case you wouldn’t be here.

So you choose, it isn’t my choice. You can go with the bullshit corrupt unfair mainstream, or you can your own distinct vision. As in creating your own language, your own emblems, your own ideology, your own set of morals like I mentioned earlier.

 

[Sprinkles]

Lol damn nigga you remind me of myself

i tried talking in a hood way too because niggers would insult me for sounding like a white man and being intelligent even though I’m one of their own

it was then I embraced my own identity that came with being a loner and so I detached from humanity completely. A spiritual awakening aided me in this process as well when I realized this human body is nothing more than a temporary vessel for the soul.

I’ve created my own culture and identity as well. It got to the point where I became completely happy by myself without a social life. My internal fantasy world.

 

[Deleted member 21467]

Lol damn nigga you remind me of myself

i tried talking in a hood way too because niggers would insult me for sounding like a white man and being intelligent even though I’m one of their own

it was then I embraced my own identity that came with being a loner and so I detached from humanity completely. A spiritual awakening aided me in this process as well when I realized this human body is nothing more than a temporary vessel for the soul.

I’ve created my own culture and identity as well. It got to the point where I became completely happy by myself without a social life. My internal fantasy world.

That’s great to hear. It‘s always blacks that complain about being oppressed or complain about not having enough opportunities, with this BLM shit, but it’s always other blacks who are trying to intimidate me or trying to make me feel bad about not being a zombie, and I’m still a piece of shit regardless.

Look at people like Michael Jackson or Prince, they’re gay as shit but they were being themselves kinda.

And religions like Islam or Hinduism have their own distinct ways of viewing life, that the sheeps follow.