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edger0uter
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I'm a 22-year-old fatcel. I've been fat practically my entire life, even when it was up to my parents what I eat and how much I eat of it.
This obviously resulted in me not being very popular with women throughout my life, and that lead to me turning into a mentalcel. And, as if that wasn't enough, getting rejected, laughed at, ignored, insulted, etc. by all women I've tried to get to know, the woman I thought was different, that I "dated" for the last few days, after her "taking a break" for "not being ready for a relationship", broke up with me recently. To be fair, she is someone who has, at one point, done coke, hangs out with male friends a lot, is uneducated and jobless (I'm at least educated), and some people in her family are Muslims, so technically it isn't that big of a loss, and the breakup may have also been mostly my fault, but that doesn't matter - the fact that I lost her, someone who gave me the feeling that not all women are shallow, hurts deeply, and knowing I can't simply replace her, that I'll be/sleep all alone at my apartment, hurts even deeper.
It also resulted in me becoming financially instable, after losing my first job. I am simply too unmotivated to do anything - including looking for a job, despite the fact it would make my life much easier practically instantly (as soon as my first paycheck arrives). Not only am I not looking for a job, though, I am also spending a shit ton of it on food deliveries, cab rides (thanks to my cousin who insists that he doesn't use public transit), and as of recently weed (as a form of coping [it doesn't even hit the same anymore]).
Oh yeah, also, I think my "ex", the one I talked about, scammed me for €64 two days ago. After sleeping over at my place, she went outside in the morning, telling me that she would return after getting some things done. When I then ran out of cigarettes, I called her to see what she was up to - but also to tell her to bring me more cigarettes on her way back. She agreed to do it, I sent her €14 for two boxes of cigarettes and an additional €50 for 5g of weed for the both of us and after a while she stopped responding. The reason why I'm not sure, though, is that she left a whole bong in my apartment that doesn't even belong to her - so maybe she'll eventually text back to get it back?
TLDR;
Also, feel free to ask any questions.
This obviously resulted in me not being very popular with women throughout my life, and that lead to me turning into a mentalcel. And, as if that wasn't enough, getting rejected, laughed at, ignored, insulted, etc. by all women I've tried to get to know, the woman I thought was different, that I "dated" for the last few days, after her "taking a break" for "not being ready for a relationship", broke up with me recently. To be fair, she is someone who has, at one point, done coke, hangs out with male friends a lot, is uneducated and jobless (I'm at least educated), and some people in her family are Muslims, so technically it isn't that big of a loss, and the breakup may have also been mostly my fault, but that doesn't matter - the fact that I lost her, someone who gave me the feeling that not all women are shallow, hurts deeply, and knowing I can't simply replace her, that I'll be/sleep all alone at my apartment, hurts even deeper.
It also resulted in me becoming financially instable, after losing my first job. I am simply too unmotivated to do anything - including looking for a job, despite the fact it would make my life much easier practically instantly (as soon as my first paycheck arrives). Not only am I not looking for a job, though, I am also spending a shit ton of it on food deliveries, cab rides (thanks to my cousin who insists that he doesn't use public transit), and as of recently weed (as a form of coping [it doesn't even hit the same anymore]).
Oh yeah, also, I think my "ex", the one I talked about, scammed me for €64 two days ago. After sleeping over at my place, she went outside in the morning, telling me that she would return after getting some things done. When I then ran out of cigarettes, I called her to see what she was up to - but also to tell her to bring me more cigarettes on her way back. She agreed to do it, I sent her €14 for two boxes of cigarettes and an additional €50 for 5g of weed for the both of us and after a while she stopped responding. The reason why I'm not sure, though, is that she left a whole bong in my apartment that doesn't even belong to her - so maybe she'll eventually text back to get it back?
TLDR;
- I am low on money
- I am low on testosterone
- I am low on discipline
- I am low on motivation
- I am high on body fat percentage
- I am low on girls that are interested in me
Also, feel free to ask any questions.
