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MoggerGaston
Nobody is safe from me.
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All my coping mechanisms are being destroyed, my emotional protection. Myself distancing from my emotions and who I am by talking about philosophy, blackpill theories and other irrelevant shit instead of having to face my emotional pain.
My ego is constantly attacked and questioned. What do I really feel, what do I really need? Why do I have these huge emotional walls around me.
It's over for me. I am a crying, upset, emotional mess at least once a week.
Absolutely over.
Brutal.
It feels so wrong, yet i know it is needed.
My subscription to the mental ward at the age of 28, is my LAST chance to fix my brain, fix my personality disorders, fix my depression.
Else I will become that man,
that man coping with alcohol/drugs until he dies, the man who is bitter, the man who is alone, the man who has so much hate and pain inside of him every day, the man who hates life, who hates joy.
It's my last chance, if this doesn't work, I give up
My ego is constantly attacked and questioned. What do I really feel, what do I really need? Why do I have these huge emotional walls around me.
It's over for me. I am a crying, upset, emotional mess at least once a week.
Absolutely over.
Brutal.
It feels so wrong, yet i know it is needed.
My subscription to the mental ward at the age of 28, is my LAST chance to fix my brain, fix my personality disorders, fix my depression.
Else I will become that man,
that man coping with alcohol/drugs until he dies, the man who is bitter, the man who is alone, the man who has so much hate and pain inside of him every day, the man who hates life, who hates joy.
It's my last chance, if this doesn't work, I give up