RODEBLUR
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Looksmax give me strength. I am feeling deeply depressed/suicidal.
Feeling like everything is rigged against me, like ''God'' set me up with a shit life and is taunting me, laughing at my face every day by giving me prospects just to have them explode in my face.
Feeling like i'll never get my oneitis to even give me the time of day ever again...
Feeling like i am delaying an inevitable suicide from all the mental pain, or delaying doing something terrible because i can't deal with my life destroying me to my core every time i try doing something just to end up directly getting reminded of my own worthlessness in the process. Despite me making compromises for everything i try to do in hopes of it maybe not being that bad of a failure, or even actually working out at best.
I don't want it to be this way. I've always tried to do things generously, and be a good person, but this life has done everything in it's power and a bit more to try and break me, and turn me into a resentful maniac seeking vengeance. God knows i have reasons.
All i want is to truly live. Not suffer. Please..
Please help me.
Feeling like everything is rigged against me, like ''God'' set me up with a shit life and is taunting me, laughing at my face every day by giving me prospects just to have them explode in my face.
Feeling like i'll never get my oneitis to even give me the time of day ever again...
Feeling like i am delaying an inevitable suicide from all the mental pain, or delaying doing something terrible because i can't deal with my life destroying me to my core every time i try doing something just to end up directly getting reminded of my own worthlessness in the process. Despite me making compromises for everything i try to do in hopes of it maybe not being that bad of a failure, or even actually working out at best.
I don't want it to be this way. I've always tried to do things generously, and be a good person, but this life has done everything in it's power and a bit more to try and break me, and turn me into a resentful maniac seeking vengeance. God knows i have reasons.
All i want is to truly live. Not suffer. Please..
Please help me.