I am fucking "Laid"

[darkness97]

i mean it in the french sense for the french users here. "laid" means ugly. it is over. went to the bar two nights in a row and used my usual method of just standing there doesn't work anymore. i have become the weird guy or something. i dont know what the fuck happened or what caused the shift but i am just not attractive to women anymore.

i haven't gained any significant weight or dress any differently. literally nothing has changed to my knowledge. maybe its because all the girls from the university went back home and there are just less girls in general but i maybe just be coping or something. i feel out of place in general and find myself missing the girl i talked about back in the day.

the only girls i fucked are the girls i actually kind of know on a personal level from work and shit. and the girls i generally get along with are the nerdy weird ones that nobody likes. Fuck my life yo. when does the good part of my life fucking start. its just disappointment after disappointment.

I changed universities to a one that is more chill with people who aren't as fucking competitive ans studious and i am hoping to find my wife there. but alas, who the fuck even knows. i may just die alone and shit.