jeffk123
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Ok so for the most part on the outside my life is great. I am good looking, peers (no true friends maybe 1-2) and I’m very content with this but I’ve also realized I’m not normal early in my life. I always felt this pit in my stomach growing up while speaking to certain others that I couldn’t shake,I self sabotage everthing I do well in atleast every half year in turn making me work 2x harder to cover the ground I have lost. I’m diagnosed with bpd and tism(light). Idk why I’m posting this tbh. I get girls an ok amount I’m definitely happy with. But it’s this cycle of self abuse,self-destruction and flat out impulsiveness that makes me want to rope. I genuinely havnt gone a day since age 10 without the thought of heavenmaxxkng myself into meeting gandy and ascending. Have a nice night bros and if yall can take a peice of advice. Dont start partying or drugs. Both have sent me into a spiral over the last couple months with my mom kicking me out at one point and im w other family now. I dont know if im gonna make it past 25 tbh and im ok with it because life genuinely is a sponge u can only squeeze so many times until no water comes out. I was high on the cart and codeine when writing this so maybe will delete later. Peace yall
