FailedNormieManlet
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It's been 3 years now since I've been in love/had a oneitis. I am essentially love starved hard. I had 1 proper gf when I was 18, a really strict christian girl - 5'2, blonde haired and blue eyed. We were friends before but eventually grew attached and dated for a bit. We broke up mutually, and I felt so depressed at the time tbh. I remember waking up crying and would see her in my dreams, life was hell tbh. I couldn't deal with the break up, so I blocked her on all social media. She got really upset and asked my friends about me and wanted to meet with me.
We met up in a park and spoke about how we felt (so bluepilled, but it was a true moment of emotional weakness), I told her I felt like I have a big hole in my life and don't feel complete anymore. She said the same too, but we agreed to not date. In the end I moved on and stuff, we're still on good terms and I occasionally bump into her at reunions and we both seemed to have matured a lot from 3 years ago.
Only time a girl was really able to control my feelings, only time I really was in love too. It's put me off from dating women as a whole, I never wanted to be that weak again. I physically can't even have a oneitis tbh. I wish I had that feeling of being in love with a girl again tbh. My humiliation over my emotional weakness with my 1st gf really fucked me over in terms of dating.
I was dating one girl and she was really into me, wanted me to visit her friends and shit. I read somewhere if you fuck a girl you get even more emotionally attached, so I was terrified tbh. I knew if I was going to fuck her, we'd eventually get semi-serious and I might catch feelings. I don't want to go through that hurt anymore, I hated how I was so emotionally weak. I promised myself I'd never be that weak again.
Tbh I'm not even an incel due to my looks, it's because I have an active fear of intimacy despite wanting it so badly. So I have to cope with all these weird obscure forums such as this place, fighting sports, lifting and hanging out with friends. In my head I have created a narrative that the entire world is against me, and my lack of sex is the prime evidence for this narrative. This narrative is the only thing which keeps me motivated, my virginity is my literal super power. I literally strive to create my own struggle because I don't want to face the truth about my inability to deal with my emotions.
Also fuck jews
We met up in a park and spoke about how we felt (so bluepilled, but it was a true moment of emotional weakness), I told her I felt like I have a big hole in my life and don't feel complete anymore. She said the same too, but we agreed to not date. In the end I moved on and stuff, we're still on good terms and I occasionally bump into her at reunions and we both seemed to have matured a lot from 3 years ago.
Only time a girl was really able to control my feelings, only time I really was in love too. It's put me off from dating women as a whole, I never wanted to be that weak again. I physically can't even have a oneitis tbh. I wish I had that feeling of being in love with a girl again tbh. My humiliation over my emotional weakness with my 1st gf really fucked me over in terms of dating.
I was dating one girl and she was really into me, wanted me to visit her friends and shit. I read somewhere if you fuck a girl you get even more emotionally attached, so I was terrified tbh. I knew if I was going to fuck her, we'd eventually get semi-serious and I might catch feelings. I don't want to go through that hurt anymore, I hated how I was so emotionally weak. I promised myself I'd never be that weak again.
Tbh I'm not even an incel due to my looks, it's because I have an active fear of intimacy despite wanting it so badly. So I have to cope with all these weird obscure forums such as this place, fighting sports, lifting and hanging out with friends. In my head I have created a narrative that the entire world is against me, and my lack of sex is the prime evidence for this narrative. This narrative is the only thing which keeps me motivated, my virginity is my literal super power. I literally strive to create my own struggle because I don't want to face the truth about my inability to deal with my emotions.
Also fuck jews
