I am reborn.

[Deleted member 275]

I have forgiven my past. My inceldom, my abusive parents, the shitty experiences I've had, my NEET rotting, everything.


It's all forgiven, just like that.

I live like it all didn't happen now, open for new experiences with a fresh mind.

My ego has been reborn, I don't get offended or frustrated from my past life and it's consequences anymore. It's irrelevant for the present.

I am going to be a life enjoyer from now

Cheers everyone

 

[Deleted member 275]

This is my most important post so far.

When people think of forgiveness, they think of forgiving others, something that affects and improves the lives of people that hurt you.

This is not true, forgiveness is only to your own benefit. In my case, it doesn't mean I will reconcile with my parents to become their abused dog again like I was as a kid. It means to let go of negative emotions so that I can move on, without being hurt anymore in the present by their past actions.

Forgiveness is for yourself.

 

[Deleted member 275]

I feel a warm glow of contentment over me right now as I truly believe in what I am saying here. I feel my mind relaxed, cortisol-levels low.

No tales, I just had 4 different people start short interactions with me as I walked through the city centre. I am clearly radiating positivity and people pick up on that. It's a posture, body language, facial language.

 

[Deleted member 275]

Happy and content Syo. Confidence radiating.

A Syo disturbed by his past, stuck in those past negative emotions.

 

[sorrowfulsad]

Wat did you do if youre not larping?
wha path did you take
Im genuinely curious I made many abused dog threads in the past to prove lmao
I really want to try meditation and maybe hiking allme and shit
but that cant give me the inner peace I want

 

[Deleted member 275]

Pictures say more than a thousand words, these 2 pictures best describe my life these past 2 years:

But now it's time for change

My future?

 

[JosephGarrot123]

Pictures say more than a thousand words, these 2 pictures best describe my life these past 2 years:

But now it's time for change

My future?

thats been my life for the last decade

 

[Deleted member 275]

Wat did you do if youre not larping?
wha path did you take
Im genuinely curious I made many abused dog threads in the past to prove lmao
I really want to try meditation and maybe hiking allme and shit
but that cant give me the inner peace I want

Inner peace comes from within. Meditation never really worked for me, neither did external validation/praise.

What I did was consciously recognize my negative emotions and that they are based on my past. I told myself what a good friend would tell me if I had one: 'The mistakes you made, the regrets you have, whether it is even your fault or not; who is to blame. It doesn't matter. Let go of them, don't feel bad because of these things. You can't change them anymore. Have your mind be concerned with today's challenges and who you are today.'

For me, when I tell myself this in my head, I notice I start glowing and feeling good. Like a pain, a burden, is lifted off me. Hatred, grief, anger, frustration, sadness. I feel it lessen and my mind calm down.

It works extremely well and I notice the difference within 5 minutes as I put myself in this mood. Now it's my responsibility to get myself back in this mood, when life is going to shit on me in the future and try to put me back in a negative state. It should get easier as time passes by and these negative neuron connections weaken.

Maybe meditation can help you find that connection with your inner self. But for me just feeling connected isn't enough. I really need to take on those negative emotions and recognize that they are no longer relevant and tell myself this. I don't remember ever being taught this during meditation classes.

 

[Deleted member 275]

thats been my life for the last decade

Today could be the day that your life changes. It has to start somewhere afterall, some day, some hour.

And once that change begins, it will slowly ripple through your life. Today and next week, changing the LDAR life, might not induce any significant change at all. You might think, what's the point. But never underestimate the impact this can have over the longterm.

You could become inrecognizable in a year's time.

 

[Deleted member 275]

I'll be leaving this forum once and for all. I have good memories and learned a lot from here, but it's time to move on.

 

[micropenis29]

 

[sorrowfulsad]

Inner peace comes from within. Meditation never really worked for me, neither did external validation/praise.

What I did was consciously recognize my negative emotions and that they are based on my past. I told myself what a good friend would tell me if I had one: 'The mistakes you made, the regrets you have, whether it is even your fault or not; who is to blame. It doesn't matter. Let go of them, don't feel bad because of these things. You can't change them anymore. Have your mind be concerned with today's challenges and who you are today.'

For me, when I tell myself this in my head, I notice I start glowing and feeling good. Like a pain, a burden, is lifted off me. Hatred, grief, anger, frustration, sadness. I feel it lessen and my mind calm down.

It works extremely well and I notice the difference within 5 minutes as I put myself in this mood. Now it's my responsibility to get myself back in this mood, when life is going to shit on me in the future and try to put me back in a negative state. It should get easier as time passes by and these negative neuron connections weaken.

Maybe meditation can help you find that connection with your inner self. But for me just feeling connected isn't enough. I really need to take on those negative emotions and recognize that they are no longer relevant and tell myself this. I don't remember ever being taught this during meditation classes.

wish coping was that wasy for me ngl
but Im happy for you bro
you made it, I hope Im next

 

[sorrowfulsad]

I'll be leaving this forum once and for all. I have good memories and learned a lot from here, but it's time to move on.

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[Bubarik]

Nicely said, good luck

 

[Deleted member 5818]

this motivation will fadeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

 

[WontStopNorwooding]

 

[Deleted member 15343]

I have these kind of epiphanies every weekend make sure you ride this motivation into the sunset if you break the chain it will all be the same again

 

[TsarTsar444]

this motivation will fadeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

It immediately looks like he took amphetamines

 

[TsarTsar444]

Bro you are def on stimulants now right? Can see by your essays and how low inhib you are. Coke or what? Or maybe you had LSD/Shrooms last night

 

[Deleted member 275]

Bro you are def on stimulants now right? Can see by your essays and how low inhib you are. Coke or what? Or maybe you had LSD/Shrooms last night

I skipped sleep today. Sleep deprivation seems to have weird effects on my mood ngl, not bad at all.

 

[Deleted member 275]

wish coping was that wasy for me ngl
but Im happy for you bro
you made it, I hope Im next

Mentalmaxxing is far more efficient than looksmaxxing. Fuark I feel so low cortisol right now.

Already socialized with ppl more today than I do in an average month. Just chilling and chatting, good vibes.

 

[TsarTsar444]

I skipped sleep today. Sleep deprivation seems to have weird effects on my mood ngl, not bad at all.

Yeah i know, sleep deprivation is a decent cope tbh , did it yesterday too.

Please don't delete account tho

 

[Deleted member 275]

Yeah i know, sleep deprivation is a decent cope tbh , did it yesterday too.

Please don't delete account tho

ill be back here to spread positivity from time to time ngl

positivitypill

 

[TsarTsar444]

ill be back here to spread positivity from time to time ngl

positivitypill

Im on a stim comedown now and its brutal bro

 

[Deleted member 275]

Im on a stim comedown now and its brutal bro

eat some grapes

 

[TsarTsar444]

eat some grapes

Why exactly grapes for stim comedown??

 

[Deleted member 275]

Why exactly grapes for stim comedown??

taste good. gotta enjoy every day as much as u can even during stim comedown tbh

 

[Deleted member 275]

Bro you are def on stimulants now right? Can see by your essays and how low inhib you are. Coke or what? Or maybe you had LSD/Shrooms last night

Mood is quite shit compared to yday. Sleep deprivation >>> good sleep. smh

Still an above average day so far tho. I might skip sleep again today for killermood tomorrow

 

[TsarTsar444]

Mood is quite shit compared to yday. Sleep deprivation >>> good sleep. smh

Still an above average day so far tho. I might skip sleep again today for killermood tomorrow

I remember in the past it was extremely hard to do an all nighter but for some reason its easy now that im 21, definitely not ideal cause i feel sleepy all day but i could survive it at least

 

[Deleted member 275]

I remember in the past it was extremely hard to do an all nighter but for some reason its easy now that im 21, definitely not ideal cause i feel sleepy all day but i could survive it at least

Same shit here

I had a 3hour nap yday at 11AM, re-energized me and felt decent afterwards.
Today I had 8 hour of sleep and I feel like shit

mehh. I might try to do microdose ketamine-therapy on myself tbh.

Twenty-five patients of the male sex, with severe depression were admitted for the study. Ketamine hydrochloride was given at a dose of 0.5 mg/kg. Six doses were given over 2 weeks.

There was a significant improvement in depression, anxiety, and the severity of illness after 2 weeks and 1 month of the last dose of ketamine.

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Ketamine has a robust and rapid effect on depression, which was seen immediately after the administration of ketamine and sustained at the end of 1 month.

I have enough for 20 doses laying around, would last me 2 months. I'll make a solution in alcohol.

 

[TsarTsar444]

Same shit here

I had a 3hour nap yday at 11AM, re-energized me and felt decent afterwards.
Today I had 8 hour of sleep and I feel like shit

mehh. I might try to do microdose ketamine-therapy on myself tbh.



I have enough for 20 doses laying around, would last me 2 months. I'll make a solution in alcohol.

Try lsd tbh

 

[Deleted member 275]

Try lsd tbh

my shit dealer doesnt have lsd. need to find diff dealer

 

[TsarTsar444]

my shit dealer doesnt have lsd. need to find diff dealer

Bro you are in the Netherlands, you have legal research chems there, just buy 1cp lsd, its literally the same as lsd, the cp gets detached in your metabolism and you get normal lsd

 

[Deleted member 275]

Bro you are in the Netherlands, you have legal research chems there, just buy 1cp lsd, its literally the same as lsd, the cp gets detached in your metabolism and you get normal lsd

already found a webshop where I can get them delivered to my house by tomorrow

gonna try ket first

 

[TsarTsar444]

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