I am RETARDED

[surgical]

Reminded myself of this... event
- I had recently broken up with my first
- I didn't want to be single for a picosecond longer so I went to look
- I found this one that I liked, black hair, blue eyes, pale, healthy weight
- Things were going great, she wanted me to come over
- She sent me a picture of her eyes in bright lighting, so I decided to "compliment" her
- "you have my ex's eyes" (I didn't initially see an issue with this)
Insta-blocked

Can't make this up. It could've been worse though
I even DMed her on elsewhere, where she didn't yet block me, asking why she didn't appear on snapchat

her pics were probably frauded anyways + she was an avid weed user. Probably a blessing, right?
This was a little over 1 year ago. I was 16.
Thoughts

TLDR: RETARD

 

[surgical]

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[XⱯNAX]

mentioning exes in a relationship might be the one of the most retarded moves to do

 

[surgical]

mentioning exes in a relationship might be the one of the most retarded moves to do

another important detail: Her eyes were blue. My ex's eyes were green
I said it as soon as the photo was sent. JFL

 

[NatureEnjoyer_]

Confirmed retard

 

[rawr]

you're definitely ND

 

[XⱯNAX]

another important detail: Her eyes were blue. My ex's eyes were green
I said it as soon as the photo was sent. JFL

yeah never shoot that shot again

 

[surgical]

you're definitely ND

I think it would be optimal to have a friend of mine watch over my shoulder and approve what I say

 

[XⱯNAX]

I think it would be optimal to have a friend of mine watch over my shoulder and approve what I say

or maybe think before doing anything

 

[surgical]

or maybe think before doing anything

I say shit all the time that I think is respectful/proper even after thinking about it

people IRL almost never tell me that I am behaving incorrectly, they would rather just distance themselves

 

[XⱯNAX]

I say shit all the time that I think is respectful/proper even after thinking about it

people IRL almost never tell me that I am behaving incorrectly, they would rather just distance themselves

because people dont like to tell with a straight face what they think people like to just let you know by the way they act

 

[surgical]

because people dont like to tell with a straight face what they think people like to just let you know by the way they act

I was labeled "weird" by a friend's manager that was fired a few weeks later for being a pedophile. Even pedophiles notice it JFL

He didn't directly call me weird, the friend later told me what he said about me

like, nigga...

 

[XⱯNAX]

I was labeled "weird" by a friend's manager that was fired a few weeks later for being a pedophile. Even pedophiles notice it JFL

He didn't directly call me weird, the friend later told me what he said about me

like, nigga...

People are always like this they are scared to judge you for what you are or just directly talk about it with you, by this im not saying you shouldn't change but try venting with somebody which isnt a retarded hb and try asking what u feel is wrong about u maybe the way u socialize or interact with others so u can somewhat change in the positive. Just dont let other make you somebody you dont want to be.

 

[surgical]

People are always like this they are scared to judge you for what you are or just directly talk about it with you, by this im not saying you shouldn't change but try venting with somebody which isnt a retarded hb and try asking what u feel is wrong about u maybe the way u socialize or interact with others so u can somewhat change in the positive. Just dont let other make you somebody you dont want to be.

sorry bhai, but you have no idea how many people I have talked to about this. I try to be fully open, honest, and I don't leave out any detail and the only response I will get is some watered down default response.

Multiple therapists, every close friend of mine, nothing ever changes. I know I can improve, but it won't ever disappear. My dad is able to be successful despite it, but he still struggles socially

 

[XⱯNAX]

sorry bhai, but you have no idea how many people I have talked to about this. I try to be fully open, honest, and I don't leave out any detail and the only response I will get is some watered down default response.

Multiple therapists, every close friend of mine, nothing ever changes. I know I can improve, but it won't ever disappear. My dad is able to be successful despite it, but he still struggles socially

i mean i dont personally know u and i cant really relate to this but i hope you fight your social insecurities and win

 

[surgical]

i mean i dont personally know u and i cant really relate to this but i hope you fight your social insecurities and win

its not even about insecurity, its how I naturally behave.. The worst often happens when I try to act normal
appreciate though, bhai
My close friends are the ones that don't care

 

[XⱯNAX]

its not even about insecurity, its how I naturally behave.. The worst often happens when I try to act normal
appreciate though, bhai
My close friends are the ones that don't care

The insecurity is thinking anything u normally say is wrong, dont think that way , don't be shamed but be sure to think sometimes behaving "wrongfully" is just a matter of confidence could be being too confident with people or not confident enough hence the fact ur close friends don't care cuz they know u, all love bhai

 

[Whiteboard7]

Reminded myself of this... event
- I had recently broken up with my first
- I didn't want to be single for a picosecond longer so I went to look
- I found this one that I liked, black hair, blue eyes, pale, healthy weight
- Things were going great, she wanted me to come over
- She sent me a picture of her eyes in bright lighting, so I decided to "compliment" her
- "you have my ex's eyes" (I didn't initially see an issue with this)
Insta-blocked

Can't make this up. It could've been worse though
I even DMed her on elsewhere, where she didn't yet block me, asking why she didn't appear on snapchat

her pics were probably frauded anyways + she was an avid weed user. Probably a blessing, right?
This was a little over 1 year ago. I was 16.
Thoughts

TLDR: RETARD

It will get better bhai. You'll find someone better dw

 

[surgical]

It will get better bhai. You'll find someone better dw

Thanks bhai. Working on leaving an LTR right now.

Quite hard.

 

[Whiteboard7]

Thanks bhai. Working on leaving an LTR right now.

Quite hard.

Thats good if you want to leave a long term relationship it will get better bhai dw. Mirin the Hexum Profile Pic!