whiteissuperior
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Throaway account. I know I am going to sound horrible, but I finally need to tell someone. I have been feeling like this for more than 4 years.
I am a white man , who is married to a black woman. I always knew I would marry a black woman, because that's the only "type" of women I am attracted to.
I met my beautiful, wonderful , intelligent wife. We dated for 5 years before getting married. I love my wife, 9 years together and I am still so in love.
We have a 4yo son. When she gave birth, he was white. But aren't all babies? But the months passed, and his color didn't change. Now he is 4 and he looks just like me. With blue eyes, blonde hair and his hair isn't even curly or afro. He looks like a little white boy.
My wife often get upset because people assume she is babysitting, or that she is the step-mom. I try to comfort her as much as I can. I pretend I am so happy he looks like me. But the truth is that I am gutted. When she was pregnant, I envisioned a black/brown skinned kid. I was excited to share "black culture" with him. I am into things that can be classified stereotypically as "black". And so is my wife.
The other day, she bought him a black doll. I asked her what was the point since he looks white. She just said to me " He looks white, but he isn't and I want him to be part of my culture, his culture".
I have NEVER said anything to anyone, or treated him as he wasn't my son. I love him. I wouldn't trade him for any mixed toddler. But I still have this feeling that I wish, when I took him to his appointments, outside in the park, people would just see that he is not 100% white.
My wife wants another baby, but I have been saying no, because I am scared baby number 2 will also be white.
Edit : Since some of you cannot understand what you are reading. This only describes my feelings NOT my wife's feeling. She and her family have no problems with our son's skin/hair color. Her labour was so awful, that she is just happy she is doing fine, and is there for her son.
Yes she gets upset at the strangers comments. You'd be surprised how many strangers open their mouths like " did they give you the wrong kid... take a dna test... check if there was a black kid born that day... Where's the mom... mam I need to see ID to check if this is really your son ... Hey kiddo , do you know this woman" etc.. etc.. Even my own family " Oh he had the good genes". Of course she is going to be hurt. But she never ever expressed or shown any resentments.
I am only talking about myself. I have never discussed this issue with my wife. Because I am afraid she would leave me or at least be super upset and mad at me.
I am a white man , who is married to a black woman. I always knew I would marry a black woman, because that's the only "type" of women I am attracted to.
I met my beautiful, wonderful , intelligent wife. We dated for 5 years before getting married. I love my wife, 9 years together and I am still so in love.
We have a 4yo son. When she gave birth, he was white. But aren't all babies? But the months passed, and his color didn't change. Now he is 4 and he looks just like me. With blue eyes, blonde hair and his hair isn't even curly or afro. He looks like a little white boy.
My wife often get upset because people assume she is babysitting, or that she is the step-mom. I try to comfort her as much as I can. I pretend I am so happy he looks like me. But the truth is that I am gutted. When she was pregnant, I envisioned a black/brown skinned kid. I was excited to share "black culture" with him. I am into things that can be classified stereotypically as "black". And so is my wife.
The other day, she bought him a black doll. I asked her what was the point since he looks white. She just said to me " He looks white, but he isn't and I want him to be part of my culture, his culture".
I have NEVER said anything to anyone, or treated him as he wasn't my son. I love him. I wouldn't trade him for any mixed toddler. But I still have this feeling that I wish, when I took him to his appointments, outside in the park, people would just see that he is not 100% white.
My wife wants another baby, but I have been saying no, because I am scared baby number 2 will also be white.
Edit : Since some of you cannot understand what you are reading. This only describes my feelings NOT my wife's feeling. She and her family have no problems with our son's skin/hair color. Her labour was so awful, that she is just happy she is doing fine, and is there for her son.
Yes she gets upset at the strangers comments. You'd be surprised how many strangers open their mouths like " did they give you the wrong kid... take a dna test... check if there was a black kid born that day... Where's the mom... mam I need to see ID to check if this is really your son ... Hey kiddo , do you know this woman" etc.. etc.. Even my own family " Oh he had the good genes". Of course she is going to be hurt. But she never ever expressed or shown any resentments.
I am only talking about myself. I have never discussed this issue with my wife. Because I am afraid she would leave me or at least be super upset and mad at me.
