i am seeing a physiatrist this Monday. suifuel is not enough for me to end it all.

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i didn't fill the form for exam and told my mom for the n th time i don't want to live and kms.
went to a railway track near me and sat down and visited a hospital due to my injury as well.
i really don't know why do i keep living and go on.
i just want to stop my head.
maybe that Jew doctor will give me some medication and it will help me sleep.

when the doc asks how it is.
i will say
never began for me ovER pls kill me.

enough days rotting i am so sick of being me.

i think the persistent suicidal thoughts are a way for me that i am a failure.

also banning myself to take the doctor seriously let's see if my mental health improves or not.

my priority list goes like


simply delete me and suffer no more.