I am severely mentally ill

[Deleted member 17578]

I no longer deny it. I am not NT, but also not autistic (has nothing to do with that).

1) My inner thoughts/self-talk is severely deluded and extremely harmful, negative. It drains my energy-levels a lot every single day and leaves no room for positivity/motivation. I repeat traumatic events that happened to me in the past over and over again, every day. Every single memory that I have is negative nowadays.
2) I often have massive social-anxiety attacks, especially with women. I cope by becoming stoic in this situations and distancing myself, but ofcourse that destroys your capability to socialize and have fun while doing so.
3) I have insane clinical depression to the point where I find no meaning in anything anymore, no fun, no enjoyment. Everything is work and self-improvement to me.

Only reason I've been on this forum is because there's a lot of other people that struggle with life in one way or another.

IRL normies just seem too privileged to me. They never had any issues in life so I can't really relate to them.
Like how I've never even met a person my age that doesn't have a family anymore like me. That's probably like bottom 1% in life quality in the netherlands. Everyone has a family here.

Tbh the reason why I looksmaxxed is to mog people so that I feel less inferior to them and I am able to socialize with them.

its fucking over for my brain. I need a brain transplant.

 

[Deleted member 21182]

Lucky u

 

[Suimaxxer]

Source: trust me bro

 

[sigmasss]

Some people just aren't meant live an easy life (me included)

 

[Dr. Bludy]

Become a monster :
1. No fap for 10 years
2. 1000 pushups every 10 minutes
3. Watch 48 hours of hamza videos in a day

 

[Deleted member 23157]

What kinda of traumaus you had?

 

[Solar]

Over when Badg96 brainmogs you

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Over when Badg96 brainmogs you

over for my

 

[Bashan]

The brain pill destroyed me.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

What kinda of traumaus you had?

child abuse+neglect by parents, bullying+social rejection IRL, growing up in severe poverty, KHHV at 23yo, years of social isolation

 

[Deleted member 24712]

child abuse+neglect by parents, bullying+social rejection IRL, growing up in severe poverty, KHHV at 23yo, years of social isolation

were u the one who made that post about gastonmaxxing? eating 2 dozen eggs a day?
hows that going for u?

 

[Deleted member 23157]

child abuse+neglect by parents, bullying+social rejection IRL, growing up in severe poverty, KHHV at 23yo, years of social isolation

That is fucked up buddy. I hope you get better in life. Have you tried therapy?

 

[Deleted member 17578]

were u the one who made that post about gastonmaxxing? eating 2 dozen eggs a day?
hows that going for u?

not great. no gastonmaxxing for my brain.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

That is fucked up buddy. I hope you get better in life. Have you tried therapy?

many times. it doesnt work

 

[Bashan]

That is fucked up buddy. I hope you get better in life. Have you tried therapy?

Massive brain hemorrhage

People: Tried therapy?

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Massive brain hemorrhage

People: Tried therapy?

It says a lot when all people can think of that could help a brain-damaged person is therapy.

its like having lung-cancer and people going: 'Oh did you try drinking green-tea?'

cagefuel how over it is when u have brain-damage in this world

 

[Deleted member 23017]

I'm the same tbh. Closer to suicide than ever before.

 

[Deleted member 17872]

Not autistic but extremely neurotic and anti-social.

 

[Deleted member 23157]

Massive brain hemorrhage

People: Tried therapy?

Honestly it can help at times.

 

[Bashan]

It says a lot when all people can think of that could help a brain-damaged person is therapy.

its like having lung-cancer and people going: 'Oh did you try drinking green-tea?'

cagefuel how over it is when u have brain-damage in this world

Knife in the brain or cope. Since doctors don't know what the fuck they're doing with the brain, it's over.

 

[JBcollector]

I no longer deny it. I am not NT, but also not autistic (has nothing to do with that).

1) My inner thoughts/self-talk is severely deluded and extremely harmful, negative. It drains my energy-levels a lot every single day and leaves no room for positivity/motivation. I repeat traumatic events that happened to me in the past over and over again, every day. Every single memory that I have is negative nowadays.
2) I often have massive social-anxiety attacks, especially with women. I cope by becoming stoic in this situations and distancing myself, but ofcourse that destroys your capability to socialize and have fun while doing so.
3) I have insane clinical depression to the point where I find no meaning in anything anymore, no fun, no enjoyment. Everything is work and self-improvement to me.

Only reason I've been on this forum is because there's a lot of other people that struggle with life in one way or another.

IRL normies just seem too privileged to me. They never had any issues in life so I can't really relate to them.
Like how I've never even met a person my age that doesn't have a family anymore like me. That's probably like bottom 1% in life quality in the netherlands. Everyone has a family here.

Tbh the reason why I looksmaxxed is to mog people so that I feel less inferior to them and I am able to socialize with them.

its fucking over for my brain. I need a brain transplant.

Just give up on socialization

 

[Bashan]

Honestly it can help at times.

Maybe if it's a really really good psychologist, I'm talking 1 to 10,000. Now try to find him bro.

No women that can help you.

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Maybe if it's a really really good psychologist, I'm talking 1 to 10,000. Now try to find him bro.

No women that can help you.

you need a shitton of money for good therapy. Nothing a young person can even afford.

subsidized government therapy here is a 40-minute session once per week. (after being on a waiting list for 6 months) If you think that kind of shit is going to fix massive brain-damage then its over.

 

[Bashan]

you need a shitton of money for good therapy. Nothing a young person can even afford.

subsidized government therapy here is a 40-minute session once per week. (after being on a waiting list for 6 months) If you think that kind of shit is going to fix massive brain-damage then its over.

I believe that someone can help you, but not because he's a professional. Just because he's that type of person. Very high IQ and understanding. Someone can understand you fully and smart enough to help you. Such people exist that is not a question.
Thing is, finding them would be harder than fuck a stacy or helping yourself.

 

[User49]

Tips for young people to avoid this type of situation?

 

[Bashan]

Tips for young people to avoid this type of situation?

Go to jail for 2 years. You will come out aight.

 

[KingBetaTut]

What’s severe poverty like in Europe tbh?

 

[Deleted member 17578]

Tips for young people to avoid this type of situation?

if I knew I wouldn't be in this situation anymore

 

[Deleted member 17578]

What’s severe poverty like in Europe tbh?

Non-stop fights and arguments about money in your household. Huge stress.
Coming home and seeing your mom/dad crying about it.
Going to the grocery store and your parent finding out they have no money on their card so you have to return all the groceries.
Running out of gas in the middle of the highway because your parents never fill up their gas-tank and thought 'they could make it back home on whatever is left in the tank'.
Not being allowed to spend money on anything that is fun and not 100% required for something 'serious' like school.
Being made to feel guilty and in debt whenever you do get to spend money on something or when your parents buy you something.
Never had clothes that I liked or that even fitted properly. I just got whatever my brother/cousins ditched.

idk list just goes on and on. My mindset basically became:

'Do I REALLY need this, can it not be avoided in any way, am I absolutely certain I will enjoy this thing, can it not be gotten cheaper elsewhere?'

'Only if you can answer YES to all of this, then you should buy it. If not, then avoid it.'

It literally leads to me avoiding any purchases whatsoever because it leads to too much stress.
Like I will avoid buying new socks untill I run out of every single one of them and I find myself walking barefoot in shoes, so to speak.

In my older days I would leave a club to buy beer at a night shop cuz it's 1 dollar cheaper, quickly drink it all outside, and then re-enter the club.

Poverty is brutal.