I am starting to fucking hate my mom

[Luca6]

Shes completely nuts. Screams at me for any Little reason crashes out completely over the dumbest things and tries to Hit me. Doesnt Support me to ascend. When I told her that anything could have been avoided if i got fed natural food. She Said I dont give a Shit about that i wont give you any of the Money we saved for you for later, do what you want When your 18 in 2 weeks I wont give any of the saved Money that was supposed to be yours for any surgery or pharmaceuticals. That made me so fucking Angry because she knows how insecure I am about my looks and still doesnt want to Support me. We argue everyday now since 2 years. Every fucking day she crashes out on me. And When i say things like I dont see a Point in Living anymore. She doesnt gaf and says Nothing. I am starting to Hater her really Bad. Crash out on me Hit me, insult me whatever you want. But dont make my insecurities and the disgust for my Self Image Even Worse by laying Stones in my way. Why the fuck doesnt she fucking understand that my Future depends on the way I Look. Why tf. Theres so much more that has to do with her which I wont Talk about but that was the Short Story. I am actually trying to Not hate her because shes my mum but its very hard rn.

 

[TrueScandinavian]

if you wanna get surgery you gotta make money on your own. Don't expect you parents to pay for surgerys just because your insecure.

 

[Luca6]

if you wanna get surgery you gotta make money on your own. Don't expect you parents to pay for surgerys just because your insecure.

I am already saving Money for erda I dont have unlimized time for that thats why its Even worse

 

[TrueScandinavian]

I am already saving Money for erda I dont have unlimized time for that thats why its Even worse

Okay and? No normal parent would give there children money to buy erda. Your mom i completly right not paying for any of this shit you want.

 

[Luca6]

Okay and? No normal parent would give there children money to buy erda. Your mom i completly right not paying for any of this shit you want.

She doesnt know about it and I didnt Even ask for and Money Directly what pisses me Off is that shes fucking Crazy, mentally ill and doesnt Care about my insecurities

 

[Luca6]

Okay and? No normal parent would give there children money to buy erda. Your mom i completly right not paying for any of this shit you want

She wants me to work a Slave Job and live a Life I dont want on top of that

 

[Luca6]

Shes completely nuts. Screams at me for any Little reason crashes out completely over the dumbest things and tries to Hit me. Doesnt Support me to ascend. When I told her that anything could have been avoided if i got fed natural food. She Said I dont give a Shit about that i wont give you any of the Money we saved for you for later, do what you want When your 18 in 2 weeks I wont give any of the saved Money that was supposed to be yours for any surgery or pharmaceuticals. That made me so fucking Angry because she knows how insecure I am about my looks and still doesnt want to Support me. We argue everyday now since 2 years. Every fucking day she crashes out on me. And When i say things like I dont see a Point in Living anymore. She doesnt gaf and says Nothing. I am starting to Hater her really Bad. Crash out on me Hit me, insult me whatever you want. But dont make my insecurities and the disgust for my Self Image Even Worse by laying Stones in my way. Why the fuck doesnt she fucking understand that my Future depends on the way I Look. Why tf. Theres so much more that has to do with her which I wont Talk about but that was the Short Story. I am actually trying to Not hate her because shes my mum but its very hard rn.

Ive calmed down now. I just wanted to express my feeling somewhere that I had in me in this moment. I dont actually hate her. Sometimes it just feels like I do.