4knorking
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So updating on that girl i like at summer camp (i genuinely love her). I wrote her a little letter and she said she just broke up with her boyfriend a couple of weeks ago and she didn't like me in that sense so therefore, she friendzoned me. I havent spoken to her much since, but i still am obsessed with her and i cant stop thinking about her in whatever im doing throughout the day. Im afraid ill never see her again as she lives in singapore, although that is improbable because she is moving closeby to me within a year or so. Yestersay though, was the absolute worst because i saw her in this roller coaster park with her best friends and she was talking to a guy (of he was a chad and had a chad name "Gunner" and looked very confident and as if he could pull any girl he wanted; even her friend group went out of the way so she could talk with him). I hated seeing this and i said to my friends next to me while watching the chad that I wanted to carve the skin off his face like a wild ape and i wanted to completely anhilate his existence for being with the only girl i actually liked. I am so tired of being ignored and underappreciated i hate it. I am so confused i am angry and i want to do something about it of course in peace but i am such a pussy I don't know what I am doing. I always blame this on myself because im afraid of not pleasing people and making them feel uncomfortable around me so i always pussy out on whatever i say ill do but i never do it. Ropemaxx i guess, idk tho. I need to change myself asap and mold my own person into what i want to be percieved as.
