I blame my parents for my neurodivergence

[copeminister]

I often blame my parents for my neurodivergent to autistic traits. Since I was young I never really had social skills, looking back it was pretty evident that I had at least slight autism. I had weird interests and only a few friends never really any groups. When people were sarcastic or made jokes I never realized it. My parents did very little to insure I would be social, they didn’t teach me football or told me to act a certain wy as to not get viewed as weird. They themselves also neither had social skills or contacts from which I could have benefited. This is not to say I hate my parents, I obviously love them. But I feel that even though they never intended it, they still are largely the corse for me feeling distant from others and always having to put on an act. My attempts at becoming more neurotypical and being more sociable have been pretty successful over the last months but still It never comes smooth and I always have to force any socialization. It’s also important to add that I for one don’t have any siblings, and also my parents were divorced for as long as I can remember, which both are causes for lack of social skills. And every time I have to force smalltalk or jokes I subconsciously start to despise them subconsciously for a short time also because I see them in myself.
Can anyone relate?