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I coped for years and years with many different things. Video games, Movies/Television, Forums, the list goes on and on and on. But every cope has an end, and at the end of that cope is the realization of how over it is and crippling depression, you have this extreme sense of awareness and introspection regarding your life and it's impossible to cope. I am 28 years old, it is beyond abnormal to be single, virgin and have had no female contact with any young woman or even males around your age. On top of that my health is in the bottom of the fucking gutter thanks to a shit lifestyle for the past decade.
No man should have to suffer like this without having the touch of a woman at such an age. I wish i had just listened to my father and gotten married years ago. Every wrong decision i could have made, i made it.
What's worse is i firmly believe in God and yet i get nowhere, i don't get better healthwise, i can't get a job, i can't get any foids, i am stuck in the mud for eternity. My looks are whatever, probably low low LTN at best but atleast i would be able to cope if everythign else was normal, i would be fine with betabuxxing some MTB or even some cute LTB from here but it's over.
Every chance/opportunity is gone, it was snatched from me. My mother is the reason for 90% of my problems, she is the culprit and she doesn't even have the IQ to realize what she has done to me. And ofcourse the typical absent father who never wanted to take responsibility for his children. What a disaster.
Single mothers should be fucking culled, their children should be taken from them and given to a loving healthy couple who can't conceive. The child will lead an infinitely better life. If you have a child and there is no father around, you need to forfeit your child, the government needs to do something about this. Millions of boys have their lives ruined because of their stupid fucking single mother and deadbeat dad who is never around. Why do we allow such things to happen in modern society? it needs to stop, it must be stopped.
Everywhere i go outside, i see young happy men and women living their lives while i cannot, i wasted my youth, i am incapable of redeeming what little i have left of it if any, i stay inside and rot on my computer and want to kill myself, i go outside for a walk or drive and want to kill myself due to envy. I go on this shithole tiktokcel forum and all 15-20 year old kids worrying about mundane shit, it's a joke.
I was setup to fail from the very beginning, not just genetically but environmentally aswell. In a way it can't be over because it never fucking began, it was over in the fucking womb being born to my parents and in this environment.
I wish my mother had a miscarriage and i was never born, she 40 years old, why did it have to happen? the chances of it happening are so low and still it had to fucking happen. What a joke.
99% of my posts on here are just me coping, i don't care or mean any of it, it's just a distraction from my crippling loneliness and depression of how shit my life is.
No man should have to suffer like this without having the touch of a woman at such an age. I wish i had just listened to my father and gotten married years ago. Every wrong decision i could have made, i made it.
What's worse is i firmly believe in God and yet i get nowhere, i don't get better healthwise, i can't get a job, i can't get any foids, i am stuck in the mud for eternity. My looks are whatever, probably low low LTN at best but atleast i would be able to cope if everythign else was normal, i would be fine with betabuxxing some MTB or even some cute LTB from here but it's over.
Every chance/opportunity is gone, it was snatched from me. My mother is the reason for 90% of my problems, she is the culprit and she doesn't even have the IQ to realize what she has done to me. And ofcourse the typical absent father who never wanted to take responsibility for his children. What a disaster.
Single mothers should be fucking culled, their children should be taken from them and given to a loving healthy couple who can't conceive. The child will lead an infinitely better life. If you have a child and there is no father around, you need to forfeit your child, the government needs to do something about this. Millions of boys have their lives ruined because of their stupid fucking single mother and deadbeat dad who is never around. Why do we allow such things to happen in modern society? it needs to stop, it must be stopped.
Everywhere i go outside, i see young happy men and women living their lives while i cannot, i wasted my youth, i am incapable of redeeming what little i have left of it if any, i stay inside and rot on my computer and want to kill myself, i go outside for a walk or drive and want to kill myself due to envy. I go on this shithole tiktokcel forum and all 15-20 year old kids worrying about mundane shit, it's a joke.
I was setup to fail from the very beginning, not just genetically but environmentally aswell. In a way it can't be over because it never fucking began, it was over in the fucking womb being born to my parents and in this environment.
I wish my mother had a miscarriage and i was never born, she 40 years old, why did it have to happen? the chances of it happening are so low and still it had to fucking happen. What a joke.
99% of my posts on here are just me coping, i don't care or mean any of it, it's just a distraction from my crippling loneliness and depression of how shit my life is.